TheRadvagentera

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Can I make it through this shit?

TheRadvagentera

I'm just gonna write what i feel here bcs i know that no one will ever read this so i'll take this as my personal place where i could write what i feel to get it out of my chest without anyone reading.
          
          Why when it comes to me i'm always the mistaken one? why couldn't be the other one, why me?
          why should i always sacrifice a lot to get a little? 
           why the others are always better than i'm? why not me be better?
          why i'll never be able to have a very close friend that i could tell everything because i can't really trust anyone because of the many times i've been betrayed?
          why can't everyone be just natural, without making something out of them selves that they are not? 
          why our world is filled with acting and fake tears and smiles?
          why can't we just start smiling a real smile anymore?
          why there should always be someone that's prettier than you're and you should always feel insecure about it?
          why many girls could apply make up so professionally while alot others can't and they just stand around the corner watching these girls show off with their beauty?
          why there should always be someone that's better than who we are?
          why can't we live without racism? why can't we live without the differences of religion or race or nationality?
          why the older sibling should always take the responsibility of his younger brothers although when he or she was in their age took responsibility of their self and depended on them self?
          why should we live with rules and cultural limits? why can't we just do whatever we want to?
          why can't i just be myself without someone telling me that you can't do this because people will say so?
          is it just my life, or does all the teens in my age feel the same way?
          I no longer know the right thing from the wrong thing, i no longer could separate the kind people from the ones who hide behind their fake kind words.
          
          Can i cry over this, or it it just me that i'm overreacting and sensitive?
          I wanna cry out my eyes and scream out my lungs.