M.C or Q.C

Reading back on my sander sides oneshots fic I am so embarrassed. 
          I could've handled a lot of topics much better than I did and I really hate the fact it got so popular.
          I would like to apologise to everyone for my shitty writing, and I'm thinking of rewriting a lot of the oneshots so they're not horribly written anymore.

So uh. I'm going to identify as bisexual as of now. I'm not entirely sure but it feels right to me. I hope I'm not faking it anyways lol
          Also I hope my family doesn't see this because I'm still closeted to them sbshdhshsiia

Honestly, the person I talked negatively about last time on my profile has uh struck again. I really thought he might have been better than how I interpreted the situation. 
          But unfortunately, no. I finally blocked him.
          He got into an argument with one of my friends and in retaliation, decided to grief mine and two of my friends' house. Twice.
          The admins of the server justified him saying teh f slur against me and my friends because he was gay. He then insulted my friend who admitted to griefing his village with someone calling her a lesbian as an insult. 
          He began spamming and pinging everyone and although I tried to defuse the situation, I was kind of crying in the bathroom. 
          One of the admins banned him not for being horrible and griefibg our house (which is against the server rules) but for spamming and pinging with nsfw images. 
          He made a fake apology and long story short he admitted to giving a fake apology and the server still took his side.
          And also prior to that he said he'd apologise if he heard me crying.
          I have screenshot of the entire conversation except for the nsfw bits but my friend sent me those just in case.
          

I might regret this but I think I might temporarily quit writing. I think I've been trying to fan the flames of a burnout in reference to the sanders sides fandom. I might make a prompt book for Roman angst but unless a new episode or something comes out and calls me from my phone to my laptop I probably won't be picking up writing for some time. Really sorry about that I'm just not in the right mental state.
          Also, I've noticed I might have drifted away from some of my mutuals and I'm sorry. I didn't mean to push you guys away if I did. As said before, I probably will be taking a break from writing altogether until I feel up to it.
          This announcement is a hot mess but I low-key need to get this off my chest 

Despite my message in my bio about PM'S, I don't really have the mental state to give advice and my social skills with these situations has decreased dramatically. I might have to see a psychologist soon too so I don't think I'm the right person to dm to vent rn ♡
          -sincerely, M.C

Rant/vent
          Just because you are LGBTQ+ does not give you the right to use slurs when other are uncomfortable with it. I had an encounter today where someone asked what the f slur was and the LGBTQ+ person immediately went after them, demanding to know if they were LBTQ+ disregarding that it was a question. Tehy said it was offensive, but they themselves kept using it when everyone in the server told them to stop. I had to ban him but he demanded he be unbanned to 'apologise and low-key threatened to take pictures of the cinvo and tried to twist it. During the conversation, he called the person who asked what the slur meant a 'straggot', assuming they were straight and their gender.  He also suggested they supported straight pride. I confronted him bout it, only for his server to respond to my message with the f slur and said there qas no harm in saying that and its shouldn't affect me. Thry kciked me from the server i explained the situation in.
          Pray tell, did you not say yourself it was offensive?  What is the point in attacking a person if it is 'not offensive'. I can't report him because it doesn't go against discord TOS I believe and the whole thing became a mess. 
          I'm still kinda recovering
          I'm still shaking but I feel better 
          

I'm tired

If you want content, go to my AO3 and you'll find some stuff

New oneshot may be out soon :D I hope you guys will like it :)

Currently working on an Anarchist! Tommyinnit fic. I may post it here, but no promises