It deeply pains me to see someone so against Christianity. I want you to know Jesus really does love you. He died for you and wants to be there for you. I don't know what happened that made you hate me and every other Christian so much, but I do pray you will forgive what happened. I'm sorry to see Christianity has wronged you enough for you to write books making us seem like idiots who pray to some non-existent God. He is alive. And He loves you more than you or me could ever even imagine. I'm praying for you.
Have a blessed day,
-Reba♡