Nathaniel

I love your name lol ⁽⁽٩(๑˃̶͈̀ ᗨ ˂̶͈́)۶⁾⁾

Hey so guys, I’m thinking abt making an original book on here, not a fanfic or anything. I have no clue what I’m gonna make it about yet except it’s gonna be gay. But first would anyone even want to read it? The MC(s) are gonna be like anywhere between 14-20 cause it’s how I role. And if any of you would be interested in reading an og book of mine just lemme know!

My 1:00 am idea of the day is IMS MAKE A ONESHOT POSSIBLE BOOK WHERE ADRIEN AND LUKA ARE TRANS (Adrien coming out as transfem and Luka being transmasc for a few years already) AND ITS GONNA BE A LUKADRIEN STORY CAUSE I HAVENT PLAYED WITH THAT YET! How many of y’all will support this oneshot that I may turn into a book? Just want a head count of how many people actually WANT this. I’m doing it either way.

Out of pure boredom here is my original song (the lyrics at least) “Against The World”. Pls do not steal because I spent days crying in my room while writing this song cause it’s about my fucking depression and shit. Not even my therapist has seen it yet but I’m planning on showing her. When I’m an adult ima have a yt channel and record myself singing it. 
          
          
          “I’m not gonna sugarcoat the truth anymore. I’m gonna write it in plain sight in these songs that I sing. I’m gonna let the world know what’s really going on inside of me. I’m tired of pretending to be someone I’m not. But even if I tell the world will anyone care? Does anyone even care anymore what I have to say or is it what it feels like just me against the world day and night. The stars in the sky made for wishing ain’t made for me. Cause it’s just me against the world and that’s how it’s gotta be. I grew up a social butterfly funny how that changed when you’ve almost been kidnapped twice. Told to be more social told to be more reserved. Which one is it oh what to do to be the person you want me to be? I’m not going to pretend to be someone I’m not anymore. But if I show the world who I am will anyone care? Does anyone even care anymore what I have to say or is it what it feels like just me against the world trying not to die cause the stars in the sky made for wishing ain’t made for me. I’m just a teenaged girl trying’ not to commit suicide. Just me against the world and I guess that’s fine with me. Why when I tell people what’s going on they just get mad. “I’m 15 I have nothing to be depressed about” that’s what I tell myself. But it never helps the hurt. I guess I have to pretend to be someone I’m not. Cause even when I tell the world no one cares. Does anyone even care anymore what I have to say or is it what is feels like just me against the world trying to survive cause the stars in the sky made for wishing ain’t made for me.”
          
          That’s not the full song but I ran outta room lol.

Omg I just checked the rankings for Doll (cause it’s early and my mom hasn’t taken her phone back lol. Well actually it’s 11:30 so…) and it’s 3 in Marcaniel!!! Omg I am over the moon you all! It’s honestly my dream to create things that people can enjoy WHILE spreading my love of God(hence the “May God bless you all” and other things like that I included in my outros now). And Satan will try to stop me but God keeps proving he is on my side in this and I will never stop. And when I’m FINALLY 18 (God that’s a long time away) I will have full control on my life and no one can stop me. Also how many of my followers or viewers are Pokémon fans? I mostly write Miraculous Ladybug stuff but I also write Pokémon stuff and if I do have a good amount of Pokémon followers and viewers I’ll write Pokémon stuff more often. Anyways that’s all I have to say at the moment so may God bless you and remember he doesn’t care if your lgbtq+ and if he does then ima mouse. See you all whenever, Rain, out.

Hey Droplets, my parents found out abt me having discord cause I was an idiot and I got my phone taken (I managed to get into wattpad via my moms phone thank goodness) and KITTY IM SORRY I DID NOT ABANDON U. Anyways I wont be updating anything for like three years and may have to change accounts when I’m an adult… yea. I’m sorry droplets, u don’t know how badly this is affecting me and making me feel bad abt leaving y’all mid doll. Anyways bye (my parents don’t know abt wattpad yet)

Okay so I'm not sure how many of y'all know but I also write songs. Most about how fucked up I am mentally. But also one abt me in an rp Im doing on talkie, an mlb one, where im in love w Nath and Marc and wanna be in a poly w em and shit. Anyways, so ik some of u want me to post my songs at the end of chapters of my books but im willing to post them in my Convo section on my page (where ur reading dis). So which one do u all want first: Two Directions, Proper Christian Girl, or Against The World? I think thats all I fully have finished and actually like, Against The World being my fav. But uh yea just tell me which one u all would like the lyrics to first and pls no copying my songs, I wrote these on my own time and with my own brain and im pleading u all not to copy em and claim they urs if I do post dis. 

So before I wrote Doll (it really needs a new name omg but idk what else to call it) Should I? Was my most popular book with 1.5k reads and uh 46 votes I think. I just looked and Doll has surpasses that woth 1.7k reads and 58 votes I do believe. I TRIED MY HARDEST TO GET TIMELESS SECRET MORE POPULAR THAN SHOULD I AND IT DIDNT BUT WITHOUT TRYING DOLL BECOMES MY  OST POPULAR BOOK! Its kinda how The Ruler was the highest rated ep or smth JUST because of Marcaniel. I absolutely love this gay ass fandom and feel bad for the homophobic motherfuckers for missing out. And the ONLY reason I say this is I used to be Homophobic and I have a friend who is your sterotypical Preacher's daughter (from outside view obvi. Cant say anything abt inside view) and she used to watch mlb. Mind you I was still homophobic when I found this out. I was ranting to another friend who ive been trying to get into mlb for years now and she is slowly getting into it about the s5 ending or Smth. This girl (the homophobic one) says she used to watch it but stopped because of the gay couple. Which one you may ask, prolly Miss B and her wife bc I think she said smth about a kiss. And there I was, my homophobic ass like "Cool, I dont care. I can ignore the gay" (probably a sign now that I think abt it) and then it gets foggy. But yea I had to rant. My rants are so random yet you all dont seem to mind???? Anyway I appreciate y'all and how much support I get from my community on here. I have grown so much and some of y'all have been here every step of the way. Some of y'all are new and just finding out abt half the shit ive been through and can say on here. Anyways thats all for tonight have a good Day/Night and see you later Droplets.
          Rain, out.

Okay so I only JUST thought abt this this morning cause I had an episode. I have a heart defect and need open heart surgery in like 8 months so if I ever randomly stop updating any of my books for 3 or 4 plus months at a time, either my parents found out abt my phone and took it or I died bc of my defect. If its the first reason you all should know by 2028 or 2029. If the second you also will know by 2028 or 2029. Cause if its the first I will start updating again when I'm 18 or 19 but if the second I wont ever update again obviously. Uh yea so sorry to drop this bomb I just kinda forgot abt it lol... um if you have any book requests for me to write just lemme know!
          Rain, out 

Out of boredom and feeling brave- should I make Marc and Nathaniel take a shower together at somepoint in doll (Within the next few chaps)? I was just writing a bit on Doll (after procreating for like one or two days) and got this idea I feel may be cringe. So just lemme know if its something your okay with reading and I can make it happen.