... I just have to vent:
Everything I've gone through, and am currently going through as of 2020, is crashing down on me.
I've gotten an internship at this thrift store back in September and while I'm stressed, I still get paid. People all around are telling me to be more "social" even though I'm perfectly content with being an introvert!
All while stressing about not missing too many days of work (minus the days where we had to shut down during hurricane warnings, I've only missed one day so far), making myself look presentable, not freaking out and trying to keep my "happy face" on despite my depression and anxiety, and my mom trying to rope me in to her interest in "positivity" and "laws of attraction" self-help...
I feel overwhelmed, both the pressure to make sure I get this job after my internship is over and still feeling how my father and stepmother - who I've broken all contact with - kept comparing my troubles and life with my younger stepbrother's...
And people keep asking "oh, you used to draw a lot, what happened?" or "why haven't you written any fanfics in three years?", it's freaking draining me and I'm feeling I'm going to have some emotional burnouts!
