If God ain't real, real isn't.

Name: [REDACTED]
Nickname: Vortex9651
Place of Birth: North Dakota
Date of Birth: August 24
Height: 545672557 feet
Weight: 130 lbs
Religion: Christianity
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown
Race: White
Ethnic Groups: German, Native American, Irish, Scottish, Norwegian, Eastern Kentucky/Northeast Tennessee Settlers
Languages: English (fluent), German (beginner/intermediate)

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Somehow, this memory, for some reason, just won't burn down. You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes. Then took me downstairs and beat me till I screamed and I cried.

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When I die, put my ashes in a trash bag
I don't care where they go
Don't waste your money on my gravestone
I'm more concerned about my soul

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Which is funny, everyone will sleep in the pews
Then blame God for our problems like He's sleepin' on you
We turn our backs on Him; what do you expect Him to do?
It's hard to answer prayers when nobody's prayin' to you

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I look around at this world we walk on
It's a smack in the face; don't ever tell me there's no God
And if there isn't, then what are we here for?

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I've been through hell all my life though
But I know what Heaven is
Father forgive me, for I am a sinner

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I am aware, it's aggressive
I am not here for acceptance
I don't know what you expected
But what you expect when you walk in a therapy session

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What you think about me
That doesn't worry me
I know I handle some things immaturely
I know that I need to grow in maturity

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"Christian" is not the definition of what "perfect" means

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Paranoia, what did I do wrong this time?
That's parents for you
Very loyal? Shoulda had my back
But you put a knife in it

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Want me to listen to you, but you don't ever hear my words
You don't wanna know my hurt, yeah
Let me guess, you want an apology, probably
  • North Dakota
  • JoinedJune 22, 2020


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