Vortex9651

If you are currently reading this, I made the decision to end my own life. 
          	Let's go back. The year is 2014. I'm seven to eight years old. My mother starts some issues and my father moves out, leaving me and my two older brothers. My mother is gone for days, sometimes weeks, at a time. But when she's home, it's not good. I fell victim to abuse and child neglect. After a few months, my father got me. It was too late. Despite me only being in the second grade, some post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) had set in. I was now scared of my mother and had an extreme fear of abandonment, something that a second-grader should never experience. Fast forward. August 2019. Depression sets in. Anxiety joins it. I inherit  bipolar disorder from one of my parents. I meet this kid in my grade. We become great friends. Fast forward. March 2020. We're both going through some stuff and we open up to each other. Fast forward. March 2021. I tell my friend of my problems and he tries to help. But there was something under the surface that I never told him. I never told anyone. I wanted to kill myself. I had access to hundreds of ways. But the easiest being a gun. There were multiple times when I was sitting there, gun to my head, about to pull the trigger. But something came over me that stopped me. God had saved me, that time. Now, 25 March 2021. Here I sit, gun to my head. Today is the day. And no one can stop it. 
          	
          	If you're reading this, my lifeless body lays on the floor. I have become just one of the many teenage suicides. Why? Because teenage mental health is overlooked, despite suicide being one of the top killers of teenagers.
          	
          	Don't follow in my footsteps. If you are thinking of self-harm and/or suicide, please talk to someone you trust or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255).
          	
          	I love you all and I'm sorry.

Anomolys

I miss him
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Buffoonery5

@SmokeEliteMain  oh sorry then it just looked kinda rude
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SmokeEliteMain

@Buffoonery5 wdym? I'm just hoping the poor guy goes to heaven.
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MaleJagerMain

I just remembered this, I have read this message, unfortunately I couldn't do anything as I didn't have a account. But he was a inspiration for me so i will continue writing stories and dedicate 1 of my books to him. I'll see you down the road, my brother.

KvnN8ionArmy

Hey man, it’s coming up on 2 years and it just want to let you know I’m sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t help you like you helped me. I’m sorry you were suffering. I’m sorry you felt it was so bad that you had to do that. 
          
          Anyways, over 200 followers, nice. And all but one of your stories in the thousands and ten thousands of reads. I’m super proud of all you were able to accomplish. I just wish you were here to accomplish more. 
          
          I’m sorry, bro. I hope you found peace in the end.

Shinigami6812

@KvnN8ionArmy I just started reading his stories a couple says ago and to find out he commented suicide just when I started reading fanfiction is sad I hope he is in a better place
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Anomolys

He’s in a better place now,
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Vortex9651

If you are currently reading this, I made the decision to end my own life. 
          Let's go back. The year is 2014. I'm seven to eight years old. My mother starts some issues and my father moves out, leaving me and my two older brothers. My mother is gone for days, sometimes weeks, at a time. But when she's home, it's not good. I fell victim to abuse and child neglect. After a few months, my father got me. It was too late. Despite me only being in the second grade, some post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) had set in. I was now scared of my mother and had an extreme fear of abandonment, something that a second-grader should never experience. Fast forward. August 2019. Depression sets in. Anxiety joins it. I inherit  bipolar disorder from one of my parents. I meet this kid in my grade. We become great friends. Fast forward. March 2020. We're both going through some stuff and we open up to each other. Fast forward. March 2021. I tell my friend of my problems and he tries to help. But there was something under the surface that I never told him. I never told anyone. I wanted to kill myself. I had access to hundreds of ways. But the easiest being a gun. There were multiple times when I was sitting there, gun to my head, about to pull the trigger. But something came over me that stopped me. God had saved me, that time. Now, 25 March 2021. Here I sit, gun to my head. Today is the day. And no one can stop it. 
          
          If you're reading this, my lifeless body lays on the floor. I have become just one of the many teenage suicides. Why? Because teenage mental health is overlooked, despite suicide being one of the top killers of teenagers.
          
          Don't follow in my footsteps. If you are thinking of self-harm and/or suicide, please talk to someone you trust or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255).
          
          I love you all and I'm sorry.

Anomolys

I miss him
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Buffoonery5

@SmokeEliteMain  oh sorry then it just looked kinda rude
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SmokeEliteMain

@Buffoonery5 wdym? I'm just hoping the poor guy goes to heaven.
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Vortex9651

No matter how much you make think you have sinned the irreversible sin, God will forgive you... But you have to make the change in your life... God will forgive you. God will forgive you because he put the punishment for your sins on his own son Jesus Christ. Jesus suffered for our sins and died on the cross for our sins and rose on the third day. And when Jesus was on the cross, he said, "It is done." So remember, God loves everyone.