my friends used to play a game where we would pick a decade, we wished we could live in instead of this. i'd say the 1830s but without all the racists and getting married off for the highest bid. everyone would look down, cause it wasn't fun now, seems like it was never even fun back then. (...) i'm lonely but i'm good, i'm bitter but i swear i'm fine. i'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and i'll get lost on purpose. this place made me feel worthless. lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me, and in my fantasies i rise above it, and way up there, i actually love it. 💛