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Just listened to a really tranquil song, was like "huh, it's incredibly quiet, but really comforting, I don't think I've heard it on my playlist yet, wonder what's it called", checked my laptop- my music tab had been frozen for like ten minutes..
No idea what I've been listening to, but it definitely wasn't coming from my headphones pfft
Wanted to write a coping fic, but realised I have no idea how to make the character I'm projecting on deal with everything because I've just been floating isolated and dissociated, and that my unprocessed trauma is pretty open ended, so I don't know how to conclude the fic
They should invent a writing a fic that fixes my brain. Like, I've thought of it so now I should know how to deal with it
Forgot my dog doesn't really react when stuff gets thrown his way and watched him absolutely fumble trying to eat a treat because he didn't realise I'd thrown him one until after it skid between his paws and under him..
In this household there's one braincell to go around, and he keeps watching it pass by him pfft
I love writing a lot and simultaneously getting none of my fics done. Like yeah I write for several hours every night consistently, I started with 3 WIP's for one fandom and like 2 months later it's still 9 more to go (plus 4 I actually did finish, so not counting them to that but I also started those without working on the existing ones)
Wanted to focus on one specific fic, started and finished 5 others and started 3 more within a week and a half instead
Arm wrestling my doctors would not fix my physical health, but I feel like it could make me feel better emotionally
Had a dream today where the scene changed from one place to another mid dream, and I was just *freaking out* trying to explain to that one guy that I had absolutely *no clue* how I got there, because I was literally in one place before, then blinked and woke up in the new one, and I *remembered* everything about the other dream/scene, but I couldn't figure out that it was a dream and that I was *still dreaming*, so I was just like "I don't know where I am or why I'm here, but I swear I was [place] like two minutes ago, and it feels like I freaking time travelled or something because it just goes black in my mind when I try remembering how I got here"
The guy was no help whatsoever, but he *knew things* and he was being really weird about it, which I guess makes sense considering we were in a dream
He did explain where I was, but just did not want to tell me why or how, which just made it more creepy
Got upset at my alarm today because it woke me up before I got done with my drawing,,, the drawing I was making in my dream-
Source? A LiveJournal post from 2009 said so and they seemed trustworthy
Why would they ever lie? (None of us have any clue, they're also just winging it) Literally no reason, they totally know what's going on
Actually started *and finished* two fics today!
(neither of them any of my 12 previous WIP's but we don't talk about that)
It's truly fascinating what I can do when I actually do it sometimes
Locked in so hard, none of the WIP's I've had sitting around for the last 2 months have any progress, but started and finished writing 5 new fics in 4 days
Fortunately for me they were both very sad, so now the dream is that the heartbreak will motivate me to work on some of my happy WIP's,,, let's hope
"I'm so normal about my hobbies"
Also me, telling my dad about a new story I planned out: *physically shaking, talking at the speed of light, hands gesturing so fast they bump into each other*
Currently working on a character wiki for my oc's, which doesn't get any actual writing done, but it does help with the brainworms
It's the first time I've included oc's that are actually active parts of the fanfic universe, not main characters, but frequently involved throughout, and I've been *so* getting into fleshing out their characters, I'm considering at some point writing a prequel just so I can get into their backstories and history & making art for them etc