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Hey....I know I rarely update but recently I’ve just lost all motivation in everything. I can’t focus on most things for over 15 minutes and I can’t come up with original ideas. I’ve only been keeping contact with about three people and cutting off the vast majority of my friends to focus on myself and to not overthink or second guess myself. Thank you all so much for understanding and I’ll update whenever I feel motivated.
          
          
          ~ cat

I'm about to copy the "copy this on your profile to see how many of us are there" :)
          Because i did all of that

This.
          
          This post was made 8/7/20.
          
          I don’t know wether I’m going to make a big mistake and I don’t know if I’m going to enjoy what’s going to happen. 
          
          Honestly I’m terrified but yet here we are
          
          All I can say is
          
          Kill all men 2020
          
          
          

I just wanted to share my story here but since it won’t let me copy and paste the story, this is the best I can do. 
          
          
          https://www.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/hig6uf/i_didnt_think_i_was_sexually_assaulted_until_now/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

I’m just saying, don’t tell me that I mean the world to you and that you wouldn’t know what to do if I left if you leave the second you get a notification
          
          If my feelings really meant less to you than a notification then I wouldn’t have put so much time into this 
          
          The only thing I’m wondering now is...who meant so much to you, that you hung up on me while I was sad, to talk to them
          
          I’m sorry I troubled you with how I felt. I’m sorry.

I feel like I’m actually doing good in life right now, I’m proud of myself. 
          
          
          Even if no one else will say it. I’m proud of me:

I just updated In a pandas life for the first time in almost a year. Go check it out plez 

You don’t want me to care? Fine. Then I won’t. Do what you want. It doesn’t matter because you wanted this and who am I to deny you what you want? Yeah, exactly, whatever.

I’m gonna make a second acc. Props to whoever can find it first. Uhhhhhh here’s a hint
          
          Hint: Roses 

I’m an actual dumbass 
          
          I have to now wear a brace that keeps my thumb and hand still for 4-6 weeks so yay me
          
          I can barely move my hand to type this soooooooo yeah this sucks