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I don't know who you are and what you are like in real because I haven't met you but I know you are stronger than you might think you are. You just have to believe it. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. You should try talking to someone you can trust about your problems. Bottling it up is not a good idea. I know that by my own experience. I promise you things will get better for you. Keep your head high because you are a beautiful person (inside and out) and you deserve all the wonders of the world.