Time seems to slow when you can't even find words to describe how you feel anymore. "Here, make it deep." These were the words my father told me as he handed me a box cutter. Something I thought I'd never hear from family. From my dad. As if battling chronic bi-polar depression wasn't enough, this is whats thrown at me. what a wonderful life it is.

 "When did the time stop? When did the last grain of sand fall? When did the metronome stop ticking?" -At Least I Didn't Think for a While 
I love you so much that it hurts..
It hurts to love you..
Damn you...
This is why it took me three years to tell you that I've loved you-
And you thought i was scared to commit?
I was scared of this.
Scared of how much i love you. 
Scared of feeling that i'd never be able to find happiness without you... 
That's what i was scared of.
I was scared of - this.
This right here.
Damn you...

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been writing for a while. I've been going through some stuff recently, and I don't know when it'll all get back to normal.