Zero_Is_Queer

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I am literally talking to a void because none of the accounts I knew have been active in years but I just wanted to log back on and say I’m just as much of an unlovable asshole as I was four years ago!! And my fucking dog died last month. She was genuinely my best friend and the last thing keeping me together and I miss her so fucking much. I think I’ve lost the ability to cry at this point I’m just empty constantly, which makes me feel like an asshole because who the fuck doesn’t cry when they’re sad

loOkrEBeCca-DuCkS

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Oh my god I’m so sorry I know how much she meant to you. Sending you love and peace right now, you can talk to me whenever you want I’m always here or on insta. Trust me though you’re not nearly as much of an asshole as you think you are because if you’re an asshole then I’m straight up going to the version of hell where everything isn’t sexy. We can just be unloveable in the void together.
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Zero_Is_Queer

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I am literally talking to a void because none of the accounts I knew have been active in years but I just wanted to log back on and say I’m just as much of an unlovable asshole as I was four years ago!! And my fucking dog died last month. She was genuinely my best friend and the last thing keeping me together and I miss her so fucking much. I think I’ve lost the ability to cry at this point I’m just empty constantly, which makes me feel like an asshole because who the fuck doesn’t cry when they’re sad

loOkrEBeCca-DuCkS

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Oh my god I’m so sorry I know how much she meant to you. Sending you love and peace right now, you can talk to me whenever you want I’m always here or on insta. Trust me though you’re not nearly as much of an asshole as you think you are because if you’re an asshole then I’m straight up going to the version of hell where everything isn’t sexy. We can just be unloveable in the void together.
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Zero_Is_Queer

heyyy y'all, I am so not as active on here anymore. I check my notifs pretty often so I'm not completely dissapearing, I just don't post much either in terms of work or just on my mb. I don't read on here anymore either, I just like knowing what y'all are up to. Anyways, I finally started getting my life together (started studying everyday, working out, teaching myself to code - fr you should be proud of me) but I just wanted to say you can check out my work on ao3 @ AcrylicZero or hmu on tumblr @ estrogengerard (I don't post much on instagram but if you wanna keep in touch I'm @ zero-is-queer) 
          
          Anyways, how are y'all? What have you been up to? <333

Zero_Is_Queer

C/W sh scars
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          The weather's getting warmer and I'm pissed because I can't keep wearing long sleeves forever. Ugh. Idk what I'm gonna do, I was functioning under the assumption that my scars would have faded enough to not be noticable by now. They have not!! They are very clearly visible!!

asotmwhostolemyname

@Zero_Is_Queer My favorite thing is telling people I was fighting alligators in Florida. Most people, if you evade their question and just give them a stupid answer, will understand that they need to drop it. :) As far as like family goes, um. I got nothing. Usually if you use lotion on them once a day they should heal a little better and not be as visible. I wouldn't try to put any sort of makeup though because unfortunately it does slow the healing process and irritate your skin. 
            JUST BECOME A FLANNEL BADDIE!!!!!! Join the midwest-emo cult haha 
            (just always keep yourself on track and try to stay as mentally okay as possible.)
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SnippyDaTurtle

@Zero_Is_Queer For instance, my friend has them on their body and they've healed well but are still very viseable yet they don't try to conceal them. They wear whatever clothes they want to and live their best life. What matters most is healing and recovering. I;m not sure if makeup would work, but there is always that as well as like gloves. Like fingerless gloves which go up to your wrist.
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SnippyDaTurtle

@Zero_Is_Queer Man If someone askes, just say you lost a fight to a werewolf or a bear or something. Don't think about the negitives, try to focus on the postive. They're healing and they will heal and become less noticeable in time.
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Zero_Is_Queer

Anyways, I saw the Cutest black cat today. How have y'all been??

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@Zero_Is_Queer I also saw him comparing lemons to Swiss cheese
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@Zero_Is_Queer the pushed empathize on the fact it was dead ducking rats
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SnippyDaTurtle

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@Zero_Is_Queer LUCKY! I just love his pronunciation  of dead fucking rats
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Zero_Is_Queer

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          Getting quite tired of my mother saying shit like "if I was in your position I'd do whatever I could to improve my condition." Yes mother, excellent observation, however you have failed to notice you have the very much glaring fucking privilege of Not being in my fucking position. 
          
          Sorry I'm not the perfect cripple or whatever but I don't want to waste my time doing shit that's gonna put me in more pain for the extremely  slim chance that it's going to even help me at all.
          
          It's easy for her to say "well you were offered x y and z and if I were you I'd try it." Okay great but you're not me. I have shit to do I don't want to be trialling some stupid fucking medication that isn't even designed to treat the disorder I have and happen to have the awfully convenient side effect of fatigue On Top Of the chronic fatigue I already have. Sorry girl I have exams to do I don't have time for this shit. I'm more than willing to try actual treatment and medications but no one is offering me jack shit atm!!!!
          
          It just pisses me off because I've got to deal with all this shit, the last thing I need is her going off on one about how I'm not fucking trying hard enough to get better. Like news flash, I'm not going to get better!!! It's degenerative!!!! Multivitamins and yoga are not going to fix me!!!
          
          It's like I've accepted my situation, but she hasn't. Maybe she's just optimistic but I'm realistic and she's bordering on fucking delusion at this point.