🥀Zee~Bee🐝

I found a 20 dollar bill in the laundry right?
          
          So im a good kid and ask my mom if she so happen to forgot it in one of her pockets and she said yes and I gave it back to her. 
          
          Get this though. We keep talking and I jokingly say “man I should’ve kept it and just gave it back when I needed to repay you.”
          
          She immediately goes into this weird gasping voice saying “You can’t do that! That’s thievery! That’s bad! That’s a sin!”
          
          When I tell you I laughed so hard when I said this-
          “Mom, im gay.”
          
          She didn’t find it as funny but I couldn’t stop laughing all the way to my room.

I’m reading Passerine on ao3 (iykyk)
          Just finished reading Tommy’s death scene and fucking bawled my eyes out-

Standing in the spotlight can be exhausting even if you are the only audience 

Was I feeling dysphoric and having body dysmorphia and decide to put on a dress?
          
          Yes.
          
          Why?
          
          Who knows! But I feel like shit and look like shit and couldn’t give a damn about it.
          
          I’m overthinking and overwhelmed and lazy. I’m having a shitty day! But guess what? 
          
          Who gives a fuck!
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I’m having a mental breakdown don’t mind me-

Sometimes things can just get too hard and that’s okay.
          
          Crying is okay.
          
          Feeling this way is okay.
          
          You may not be okay right now but you will eventually.
          
          We may be hanging on a ledge but at least we’re doing it together. We might not see each other or even ourselves sometimes but soon we’ll all be okay. It’ll be okay because it’s been okay before even if we didn’t realize it.

Ethan waited for Livy to say something and didn’t know how to react when the other finally did.
          
          “Y’know everyone already told me when I had heavy thoughts that I should live for them if I couldn’t live for myself... and that’s all I’ve been doing. I ran with it because I honestly couldn’t find a reason in myself to live besides the reasons for others. But there’s something exhausting about living for others. Something that takes so much more energy out of you then just living.”
          
          “What- what are you talking about?” Ethan was scared for his brothers response but asked the question anyways with a shaky voice.
          
          Livy let out a sigh before having a small smile cross his lips. He felt his heart beat in a way that felt too fast yet too slow as he slightly swung his legs. He pressed the phone harder into his ear as if it made anything better before he said his carefully chosen last words. “I’ll see you in our next book. I can’t wait.”
          

Done with 6 minutes to spare! Let’s gooooooo

It’s 10:17 pm let’s write an essay that’s due in 162 minutes!

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