My first ever kpop bias. The first person that caught my eye, and the person who stayed in my heart for 7 years until now. The most lovable bunny, the funniest dork, the smartest kid, the greatest pro gamer, and the most special golden maknae of the team. Jeon Jungkook. I promised that i will stay by your side no matter what, forever, back then. Up until now I'm still keeping that promise, and i never and will never intend to even try thinking of breaking it. Back then i thought i love you as my boyfriend. But suddenly i realized that, we have 13 years gap in our age. I've always believed that age doesn't matter. Don't get me wrong though, i still do, but i knew you'd get married too. And i knew i ain't the one you'll be marrying. Instead, I'd be the one in a million people standing, sitting, laying, smiling, or crying somewhere in the world. Watching how happy you are seeing your future wife walk down the aisle, and watching how lucky that woman is. I kow it was stupid to think that way. But i still like you- no i LOVE you. But not as my husband nor boyfriend anymore. Instead, i love you as a man, as my idol, my first love, my inspiration, my friend, my SAVIOR. I love you for who you are. To think that this is just fan love even though there's still more. I thought back then that i would only love you as a fan just like how most of the other girls do. But no. I fell for you in a different way, but in the end i forced my self to love you like how they do. Fan love. I thought i could manage but i can't help but feel the difference of true love and forced love.