_Fangirl_1001_

I'm still up. I have to get up for school in less than 5 hours. I'm sorry.

_Fangirl_1001_

Heartache is something awful. 
          
          And I'm not just stating the obvious. 
          It's cutting ties with someone who maybe you didn't want to hurt. 
          So instead, you hurt yourself, emotionally, mentally. 
          Maybe you broke up with them because they were cheating, but in my case it wasn't. 
          It's noticing how much emptier your messages are and seeing how different it is. 
          The late night messaging and evening calls. 
          Going out into the brisk wind just to talk because your heart speeds up when they're just breathing out your name. 
          It's staying up late creating scenarios that will never happen, especially with them. 
          It's waking up in the early morning hours and realizing that you'll never get a message from them for a while. 
          Scrolling back to the earliest of messages that you both sent and noticing that they aren't there. 
          
          It physically hurts your heart and that's something that you can't take medicine for. Your heart hurts and so does your head because you fell for them too hard. That is heartache. When you're thinking of them so much that it hurts you, not in a bad way either. 
          So maybe you're not with them physically, but I just hope they know that they're always in mind and soul. 
          
          *Rant over* whoops.