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I thought that this year was a good year for me start anew and be brave. But,sad to say it wasn't.
First,one of my family member passed away. Second, My relationship to my family members especially cousins on the both sides,wasn't in good place. Then lastly,the pandemic erupted which all people around the world are facing this crisis right now.
I never forseen that this will happened. It's like things are getting out of hand rightnow. My life's messy before but it was more messier than ever I could imagine.
This pandemic cost me alot of things. It sort of triggered my mental health as well as my physical. The things that I usually love to do has started to fade. My passion was nowhere to be found,it's like I'm being trapped on cage.
I could no longer pull my shit together because I'm locked up and Technology can't help me. I badly need to go outside and take a breather. I just need to go somewhere but the sad reality is I can't.
The situation right now is taking a toll on me. It's like my sanity is starting to drift but I'm trying to keep myself okay. Because I know a lot of people not just me,who's facing brave this tough time too.
To be honest,I hate the word "NEW NORMAL".
Because,I'm still hoping that things would go back the same way as before.