Hi Julie. You should be proud of what you have written even though you no longer like those tropes, I get it 100%, but it shows how you have grown over the years. From the first time I read one of your books, I was like woah and then I read another, then another, and I could see the improvements that you made. Even if you don't like them, they have helped shape your writing for the future! Try not to think about it is so hard, I can tell by the way you communicate with us, that you'd never be one to support anything of the sort in real life. You're genuinely a good person. Give yourself some grace.
Love you Julie, can’t wait to see you succeed!