@itslavs to answer your question, it was written when I was still exploring the world, I was young. I had a crush on this woman and couldn't confess so I thought back then, what if I made up a story na magiging sila, even if it was impossible? I thought about how I could make such a story happen, I thought maybe the protagonist could just change her appearance or some shi, maybe. And then boom, IT WAS SO CRINGE TO REREAD, MIGHT DELETE IT LATER BYE