yes it is normal! but you have to always remember that things get better. life is going to hit u in many ways and we have to remember that, life is just like that! It hurts us, makes us happy, and then hurts us again, all over. You are going to get happiness, you just need to find a way to get to it.
A lot of times in my life i felt stupid, and that nothing was worth it, but i had to remind myself that so much is ahead of me. So many people would be so hurt if u ever chose to end ur life, so u if ever get suicidal thoughts (or are currently dealing with them) please, PLEASE get help. It doesn’t have to be me or a emergency contact, just let someone know. You are more than just amazing, you are kind, awesome, and have so much worth to live. Don’t let your brain get to you ❤️