I'm so deeply inlove with Spencer reid bro. I can't wait to shift. I can't wait to have him in my arms, to hug him, hold him. To love him, to hear his rambles when he's nervous, or when he's not. I just wanna hear his voice. I can't wait for him to lay in my lap while I run my fingers through his hair and I read to him. I can't wait to cuddle him, to get to know him way more then they showed in the show. I can't wait to see his smile in real life, to hear his laugh, for him to hold me. For him to compliment me. I can't wait to just be there for him, or with him. I can't wait to see him in front of me, to hold his hand, to go on dates with him, kiss him, love him. To watch movies with him, go on walks with him, go to parties with him. I love him so deeply, I have loved him for so long, I've loved him since I first started watching criminal minds with my mother. Three years ago. Three years strong and I'm still so deeply devoted for him, so deeply inlove with this man, so entangled with him. I see his smile and I just get weak, I think about his name and my whole body is numb and all I can hear is the beating in my chest. Holding my hand to make it feel like its him, having my weight blanket next to me to make it feel like he's next to me. Listening to Playlist about him, listening to little asmr things to help me shift. Thinking about him every night. I would do anything for this man. I can't wait to have him sleep over at my house, to be able to wear his clothes, to recreate scenarios in shorts I read about him. I can't wait to shift just for him. Just to see him, just to love him, to cuddle him, to kiss him, to be there for him, to be the one he needs, the one he wants.