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This is kinda a personal question but do we prefer the name Star or Rive or River?

I dislike school a lot. Especially as it’s catholic nothing against religion or religious people I just personally don’t like the idea of it I’ll occasions pray to Greek gods but not much past that so when I’m forced to the school church weekly and we are meant to pray I’ll think or talk in my mind to the dead. Anyway one thing I do like about my school is that last years teachers threatened to suspend people in my year for using gay as an insult and I am very happy about that.

Hiya! How are you?

I watched 3rd ep of pantheon from Owen and Abolish’s pov both very good. I’m going to watch more as the week goes on though. Something I wanna point out is during/before the fight in Owen’s pov you have this little monologue and he says something like I pulled out future me more skilled ruthless and apathetic and I’m like apathetic you say…betrayal? 

Hiii! Hru?

I’m considering changing my profile I probably won’t oh well anywho just want to say I’m lost so very lost I’ve felt lost for years walking in an endless abyss with nothing but hurt oh well it’s temporary…right? it’s meant to be temporary, but nothing ever feels temporary when you’re living in it. I wonder why I’m still trying other days I wonder why I wouldn’t try.

I feel like this page is a void only talk on here if it’s me hurting or people are interested it’s quite nice though knowing I can sit here talk to the void. I like to think the void is where the souls of the dead go. That’s why it fees so blank cause I can’t see them yet a beautiful abyss. I like to think the main souls the ones closest where the people you loved and the ones you never got to. People that you couldn’t meet cause you lost them as well as the ones you lost. The prospect of the void is very pretty a blank space with specks of colours. Sometimes I remember why I want to live. When I die I wish to be rembered as a star ,above the stars,a match (something that can spark) or a wilted flower has to go eventually can’t stay forever but still there till it fades to ash till the memories of them fades.I’ll stay I hope at least I want to stay for all the people who I can’t think to go without. Because if I can’t leave without them how could I die without them.dark purple void is a thought it’s how I imagine the void but that might be because it’s my favourite colour.i constantly want to go home even when I’m home maybe because it’s not a true  home home seems more like a thought than a thing a concept of safety and love. Oh well.

I don’t know why I really don’t know why but I feel like pantheon pearl is getting betrayed by the feather holders at some point late in the series. I don’t know it’s a thought I have and I can’t let it go. I’m sorry on a happy note I’ve decided to dub Owen and Pearl‘s duo orange moon yay

Watching my second pov of pantheon rn it’s amazing 

Me excited pantheon is releasing in like 20 minutes