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I hate that I'm gone for so long and I drop this but like I have no one else to talk to about this. So uh.. sorry about that :c
Anyways- Tw for su!c!de, men being men, gu!lt tripping, manipulation, and other stuff!
So about two or three years ago I had an iPod and my brother had an apple phone that both had the same charger outlet.
One day, I had lost my charger and the only other one I knew of was my brother's. So I decided to use it and put it back without him knowing so he wouldn't yell at me.
Anyways, he found out and started yelling at me, and he called me a wh*re.
Another thing that happened is when I was fighting about him about rights and sexuality.
He thought men and Christianity were the best. I disagreed that men and women (and other genders) have equal rights. I told him one time that I didn't know what I was attracted to. He told me I'm disgusting and that "God" created me to have children. He also said men were better because they provided for everything, risking their lives to save our country.
Another time he told me men k!ll themselves because of women and women are terrible.
And do you know what the most fucked up part is?
He is now telling me that he never said these things. I can't tell if he is being genuine or trying to confuse me that I made it up in my head.
And sadly, I've been have not so nice thoughts about myself. Thoughts of ending it, sh, and more because I can't live with someone who always makes fun of me and won't let me have feelings.
Anyways sorry for the sad rant, I didn't want to put any negativity on here and just make this an outlet of trauma dumping.
So hopefully I won't do this much. But I would gladly appreciate your thoughts on this and such.
