acid_kitty

Hello! 
          
          It has been a couple months hasn't it?
          
          Well hello once again guys! Like I said months ago, I wasn't totally leaving. And I'm back! Slightly. I would love to write stories again, but I am out of ideas and I am going to Greece tomorrow! Yay!
          
          BUT. Before I even say anything, I would like to say I am sorry. Today I had finally snapped and finally told myself that I am a big problem in the Sams community. Maybe not on really huge levels, but many knew me. Especially because of the Solar x Ruin stories. I get that it was around 2 and a half years ago (I think) and I had no online decency. Especially the character Eclipse. I wrote him in an awful and horrifying way. And I feel really bad for people who have read it. (But it is all deleted now, as well as almost everything on my account)
          
          I now know I should not write something like that ever again. And if any of the influenced people see this or even the creators of the show, I truly apologize again. I have turned a new leaf since I went away from this app. And I am truly a better person. 
          
          Anyways, it is ok to not forgive me, little me was a menace. I just hope that you respect me and not send any harmful messages to me or others. And please do not post this on any Internet platforms (til tok, instagram, etc), I do not like the drama.
          
          Anyways, if you have any ideas for a story with OC's or Sams, Laes, I will be glad to see what you would like to see.

Hi. 
          
          I'm here to deliver sad news.
          I'm quitting.
          
          I have deleted discord and I'm going to not delete my account in case someone wants to read my stories or what left I have of them.
          
          The truth is I used to like to write and make my own stories. But what I wrote was not appropriate for my own age and still isn't since I wrote bad things and stuff that still makes me embarrassed to this day.
          
          I used to like doing this, but school and my personal life drains me. I fell out of habit, and fell out of the love for it. Especially since I stopped writing ruin x solar (my most popular)
          
          I'm saying goodbye, but I still will be active, I'll probably read other stories and check my inbox.
          
          If anyone wants to continue any of my stories you can ask me first to continue it.
          
          But, if the near future comes and I start thinking about writing once more, I will go ahead and write again, when I have the free time.
          
          This is not a goodbye, it's a see you later.
          
          Have a good day / night and take care of yourself. <3

Imagine being gone for a couple months...... Ha.. ha..
          
          Anyways, I was thinking about actually writing something again!! :3
          
          That being eclipse and puppet show.
          
          I really wanna write on what happens after the show ended. Basically house life and such, eclipse's and Roxanne's relationship growing stronger, and the kids growing up a little. I feel like that would be great.
          
          Plus, I am making my own story at the moment called "soldier boy" it is about two boys who get sent off to WW3 and have to fight. With twists and trauma. (Plus backstory about them and heavy themes) 
          
          One thing I wanna add is that I was very busy with school and golf. Now that golf is over, I can finally get back into habit. 
          
          So please, go ahead. Recommend something or ask questions.

Help I just now realized your pfp is Dawko but a cyclops (I think it’s Dawko anyways)

https://discord.gg/D9E7adR7
          
          Here is the new link!!!
          
          Make sure to follow or add rules!!
          
          And I'll take requests for more channels!!! :3

OK SO,
          
          I'm taking a break of social media for a bit. I had already messed up talking to someone and I need to remind myself to not be a dumb ass and just say something that many people don't find.. appealing. 
          
          So at least a week before I even do anything. So sorry to whoever I had made uncomfortable and I hope I will do better.
          
          Though, it may just be because of what has happened earlier. So ya. Just leave me alone for a bit!! <3

OK- ALSO
          
          IM FREAKING TERRIBLE AT TALKING
          
          I might say something too far- so if I do that I apologize..
          
          So if I do that I'm sorry. It already happened. :(  so just be aware that I suck at talking-

GUYS!!!?!????
          
          I GOT MY ACCOUNT BACK ON DISCORD.
          PLS JOIN MY SERVER IF YOU HAVEN'T 
          
          https://discord.gg/RJpyZAqG
          
          PLEASE

Hiiiii!!!!!!!
          
          Anyways, I'd like to say I'm more refreshed and ready for any troubling days ahead!!
          
          My dad has been teaching me how to golf and I'm REALLY enjoying it!!
          
          Also my brother (guy from last thing..) got his truck and will be able to drive soon maybe. His truck is nice.
          
          I'd also like to say, that my mom thought that me and my bestie were dating-. All I said was that I wanted to share a house with her.
          
          I also don't think my dad would be opposed to me being lesbian.
          
          I never thought that would happen. But I don't know. I'll have to be extra nosy in conversations I guess.
          
          Anyways I hope you all are having a good day and a special thanks to people who tried to help. So thanks!!
          
          Also solar's unwanted parenthood chapter 14 is coming out this week!! :3
          
          (I've been coping with BL lately... Shhhhh)

I hate that I'm gone for so long and I drop this but like I have no one else to talk to about this. So uh.. sorry about that :c
          
          Anyways- Tw for su!c!de, men being men, gu!lt tripping, manipulation, and other stuff!
          
          
          So about two or three years ago I had an iPod and my brother had an apple phone that both had the same charger outlet.
          
          One day, I had lost my charger and the only other one I knew of was my brother's. So I decided to use it and put it back without him knowing so he wouldn't yell at me.
          
          Anyways, he found out and started yelling at me, and he called me a wh*re. 
          
          Another thing that happened is when I was fighting about him about rights and sexuality. 
          
          He thought men and Christianity were the best. I disagreed that men and women (and other genders) have equal rights. I told him one time that I didn't know what I was attracted to. He told me I'm disgusting and that "God" created me to have children. He also said men were better because they provided for everything, risking their lives to save our country.
          
          Another time he told me men k!ll themselves because of women and women are terrible.
          
          And do you know what the most fucked up part is?
          
          He is now telling me that he never said these things. I can't tell if he is being genuine or trying to confuse me that I made it up in my head.
          
          And sadly, I've been have not so nice thoughts about myself. Thoughts of ending it, sh, and more because I can't live with someone who always makes fun of me and won't let me have feelings.
          
          Anyways sorry for the sad rant, I didn't want to put any negativity on here and just make this an outlet of trauma dumping.
          
          So hopefully I won't do this much. But I would gladly appreciate your thoughts on this and such.