alexijoon
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seasons has been updated, chasity v lust will be coming as quickly as i can as well, and hopefully more then one chapter!! please be patient with me): my home life has made me embarrassingly unmotivated so just know that i am trying my best for all of u pretties(: <3
alexijoon
@_ImPurple it’s okay love!! i’ve been taking a bit of a break as well, but you have always been on my mind. you’re a sweetheart who i adore and love, with the biggest heart of gold, and i hope you’re doing well and you’re okay. i love u lots angel<33
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ᴴᵉˡˡᵒ ᵇᵘᵇᵃ! ᵀʰᵉʳᵉ ⁱˢ ᵃ ˡᵒᵗ ᵍᵒⁱⁿᵍ ᵒⁿ ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵒʳˡᵈ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴵ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ⁱᵗ ᶜᵃⁿ ᵇᵉ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ˢᶜᵃʳʸ ᵇᵘᵗ ᵃˡˡ ᴵ ᵃˢᵏ ⁱˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ʰᵒˡᵈ ᵒⁿ ᵗⁱᵍʰᵗ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ᵘᵖ, ᴵ ᶜᵃⁿ'ᵗ ᵖʳᵒᵐⁱˢᵉ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁱᵗ ʷⁱˡˡ ᵇᵉ ᵉᵃˢʸ ᵗᵒ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰ ᵗʰⁱˢ, ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ ᵈᵒ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʰᵃᵛⁱⁿᵍ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ᶜᵃⁿ ʰᵉˡᵖ ʳᵉˡⁱᵉᵛᵉ ˢᵗʳᵉˢˢ ᵈᵘʳⁱⁿᵍ ᵗⁱᵐᵉˢ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵉˢᵉ. ᴱᵛᵉⁿ ⁱᶠ ⁱᵗ'ˢ ᵈⁱᶠᶠⁱᶜᵘˡᵗ, ᴵ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗᵒ ᵈᵒ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵇᵉˢᵗ ᵗᵒ ˢᵗᵃʸ ˢᵃᶠᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵐᵃⁱⁿᵗᵃⁱⁿ ᵃ ᵐᵒʳᵉ ʰᵒᵖᵉᶠᵘˡ ᵐⁱⁿᵈˢᵉᵗ. ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃʳᵉ ᵒᵏᵃʸ, ᴵ ˢᵉⁿᵈ ᵐʸ ʰᵉᵃʳᵗ ᵗᵒ ʸᵒᵘ... ❤️
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alexijoon
hey my angel <3 i miss you dearly and i’m so happy u are checking in on me, that makes me smile. it is definitely scary and i’m feeling a lot of emotions, but it’s not just me because i know we’re all in this together! it is difficult, but your words will be my comfort and motivation to stay safe and remain hopeful in a hopeless time. please always remain in good health & i wish you nothing but the world. i store your love very close to my heart and i hope you will accept all my love for you back!
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alexijoon
seasons has been updated, chasity v lust will be coming as quickly as i can as well, and hopefully more then one chapter!! please be patient with me): my home life has made me embarrassingly unmotivated so just know that i am trying my best for all of u pretties(: <3
alexijoon
@_ImPurple it’s okay love!! i’ve been taking a bit of a break as well, but you have always been on my mind. you’re a sweetheart who i adore and love, with the biggest heart of gold, and i hope you’re doing well and you’re okay. i love u lots angel<33
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alexijoon
it’s 7pm on a tuesday and i’m sitting on my couch crying for absolutely no reason. i wish i had all the money in the world so i could use some to get myself some help in some way, or to just be diagnosed so i can stop having to guess why i just shut down sometimes or why i cry all the time or why i have nightmares or why i can never fall asleep or when i do i mentally cant force myself to care about getting out of bed or not or why i am so skinny and never gain a pound no matter what i eat or try and why no one will ever understand how mentally exhausted i am dealing with what i do. i am so so thankful for my friends and all of you for your comforting words, because i will never receive the love i crave from my family and it hurts and people have it worse but i’m hurting and i can’t do a damn thing about it. i’ve been drained way past my limit and just had to get it out, sorry if i wasted your time.
alexijoon
@xminimax you are truly the kindest soul i’ve come across in a long time. thank you for saying what i needed to hear, and even reassuring me that i’ll be ok. thank you for taking time out of your day to write these comforting words that i will treasure so much. i’ll be here for you as you’re here for me, anything i can do i’ll do for you. thank you peach, from the bottom of my heart.
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xminimax
@ alexijoon maybe I can't diagnose what you have, but I know that you are human. A person who has been through a lot and will be facing awful things in the future. So, even though all those things you feel aren't welcomming... you will always be allowed to feel this way. Even if people have it worse... you are also allowed to have nightmare, allowed to feel exhausted. You are allowed to cry. It doesn't make you less of a person. On te contrary, it shows that you have experienced many hurtful things, but the fact that you are still here and even show your love and kindness to others... you don't need to be strong always. Certainly not when you have been this strong before that it has make you cry so much.
We always want to fight it, hide it or ignore it...but we can't makes things disappear when they are locked up. All you pain and emotions deserve to be freed. So cry all you want. And I will be here to listen and hold you in my heart.
You don't need all the money in the world to get help. Therapy doesn't always work. For me at least not. But that is okay, because we can find other ways to cope with it. For now, I of course recommend you to listen to bts, but give river from Aurora a shot too. It is a very beautiful song.
You are beautiful. Even if you only see yourself as broken... ruins have their own mesmerizing beauty. So no, you didn't waste my time. I am verry happy that you shared it with us and don't be afraid to do it again when you feel the need to. I always be there to listen to you. My precious darling.
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alexijoon
just got back from watching bring the soul, have school tomorrow n have a chapter for seasons that should be uploaded around 4-5am lol((: i can’t wait for the year ahead of me!
alexijoon
i’m sorry for not updating i’ve been really stressed out because recently my hair in one spot on the top of my head has been falling out or disappearing idk how to really explain it it’s basically just gone but only in that spot n we went to the doctors today and they don’t know what it is so now i have to go to a dermatologist and that’s making me really anxious that something is wrong with me n i don’t know what to do about it so like that’s awkward???
but i’m okay i think
_ImPurple
:)
_ImPurple
<3
alexijoon
i’m going to be a senior n we had orientation today n one of the classes i balloted for n did the long ass summer assignments for conflicted w another class i really wanted so i had to get rid of it even though i did all that work so i’m really annoyed)):
alexijoon
i had only been scheduled to work today from 2-4 since i’d just gotten back from vacation n then they change it to 2-10 n i hadn’t eaten all day until now (11:30pm) n now my mom won’t leave me alone even though im insanely tired)):
alexijoon
@xminimax my vacation was wonderful, thank you so much for asking!! the cabin was beautiful n the scenery was lovely, definitely something i won’t forget! i wish for all your tomorrows to be the best imaginable, and i luv u<3
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