hello everyone,
i know i’ve completely disappeared for almost two months and i think i owe you some explanation. i’ve recently dropped out of college and if you know me personally, you’ll know it is kind of a relief to me. wattpad was a hiding spot for me for two years, hence why i’ve published so many fanfics these last few months, finished or unfinished. it just helped me cope, writing about a life, something that wasn’t real because i felt so sad and depressed about my own reality.
it came to a point where i honestly didn’t write for myself anymore but for the attention that reminded me i’m at least good at one thing; cheering up people with my stories. the only fanfiction i can think of that i’ve put out recently where i wrote it for myself was ‘wildfire’ all the other ones were just for attention because you guys’ comments kept me going.
this is why i want to change my relationship with writing and actually start doing it for me, no matter if it pleases people or not. this is why i’ve decided to stop writing my juge bellingham fanfic, it’ll however stay up for anyone still interested in reading the few chapters i had already written.
this isn’t goodbye, i’m not leaving wattpad, i will only be less active and focus on my own personal projects more now that i have some free time away from university.
this is a very vulnerable message for me, i usually don’t open up like this about my personal life so i hope you’ll understand.
i hope to see you all again soon and see where the next unhealthy obsession will take us.
with all my love,
april ♡
