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I got my booster shot for covid-19 yesterday, and now I want to die. I haven’t been sick in so long and I forgot how miserable it feels. At least I know I’m not actually sick, and I’ll be feeling fine by tomorrow 
          
          Everyone should still get vaccinated, but I’m just not having the best time of it rn.

I’ve only read about two thirds of this book but it’s really good so far and I think everyone should read it. It’s called Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo (published book not a fanfic) 
          
          The plot is kind of be gay do crime (only one of them is queer [i think] but they’re all outcasts in a gang together so… come on) meets magic meets heist meets romance meets sad backstory that makes you get really attached to all the characters
          
          I love it so far 

Yes! another Nouis girl 

I was just on the verge of an anxiety attack but I listened to this song, Anda by Billie Marten, and istg I feel so much better 

I just did backstage for my school’s play :)
          (it was Clue) (like the movie/ board game) 

History just came on and now I’m sobbing 

I’m in a weird place rn. I feel really disconnected from reality. Maybe some of you can relate ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 
          
          I just got some closure from my old best friend, which was really nice, but the thing is that I don’t really miss her anymore and I feel like it’s changing me. I kind of feel happier but I also feel like I’m faking it. I feel like I’m not as nice of a person, and like I only care about myself. I feel like everything’s changing, including myself, and I hate change. 
          
          I’ve even noticed that I care less about 1d which makes me so sad because they make me so happy and I don’t want them to be just another hyperfixation. 
          
          Idk. I just feel really weird :/ 

My mom was looking at her google calendar and just randomly mentioned that October 11th was national coming out day- 
          
          
          Istg if she knows…

ASHE REPLIED TO MY TWEET! 

I just hung out with some of my old friends that I haven’t seen in like 3 years, and they were ACTING SO STRAIGHT. I started talking to them and I thought “wow, they’re, like, obnoxiously straight. That’s embarrassing for them”. And then I realized that they’re the majority and me, a queer person, is actually the minority of a lot of the world… 
          
          Anyways  now I have straight fatigue