─ 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓.

where are you, dear star? 

/me staring up at the night sky/

i’m a moon. i fell in love with the sun. 
          we barely meet or get to be near each other, but we exchange sweet love letters through the clouds and falling stars, through the wind that blows and the sky we share where a painful distance lies between us still. 
          he tells me he loves me, that i’m his favorite celestial body, and he wishes to ride among the stars, dance around the orbits and travel every corner of the universe with me. 
          but we both know that’s something we can only dream of, hopelessly, desperately; i can never get too close to him anyway. 
          he’s the brightest star in the sky, and i’m just a silver of a satellite that absorbs his light and just takes and takes and takes until he goes down and i’m left shining off of the brightness he left me, alone. 
          i remember how the stars once told me that we’re meant to be, that we’ll get to be together, and happy, someday, somehow, that it’s written on them. that we do people good, bring them light, give them an unimaginable source of comfort. but when we kissed that one time, it only brought to the world an eclipse. complete darkness. we touched once and it was as though all the light from the world was taken away. 
          so how am i to believe we could ever be with one another?

that's a passage from the red queen series on the background <3 

the way i post shit like this here, in my mb, rather than releasing it in a book because i’m scared of too many people reading them

nope, writings still crusty

i saw this star today. it was bright, looked so pretty, absolutely mesmerizing. 
          
          it was following me as i drove back to my house, for almost an hour and a half, and i’d enjoyed its company. a lot, actually; i’d wished it would stay with me and keep me company till the very end of my ride; maybe because it made me feel less... lonely, less bored, less lost.
          
          and it somehow felt familiar to me, a tiny bit like home, even. 
          and i thought, perhaps i’d met that star somewhere in time before, perhaps we were friends in another lifetime, perhaps once, i was a star, too, and we’d traveled the universe together. 
          
          but for some reason then, when i blinked, closed my eyes for just a mere second and flashed them open right back, it was gone. 
          
          it had vanished from my sight and i searched for it, maybe even a little desperately, more than i would’ve liked to admit. but then, i’d just hoped the star was still shining somewhere in the sky where i could see it, somewhere in my view so i that could know it wasn’t fully gone, that it hadn’t completely left.
          
          but it wasn’t. 
          
          and just then, i thought of you. 
          for a moment, i think i felt you. 
          
          i guess it just hit me how i’d just lost a star, whose company i had started to enjoy and gotten used to, yet again in the blink of an eye, and there was i could do about it but hope, and hope, and hope we’ll cross paths just once more someday. 
          
          will i ever be seeing it (or you) again? 

i come here often to check up on you. 

remembered you 

i just realised that's channie in your pfp