Phoebe Irwin

i just listened to boyband...
          
          I'M OBSESSED

I know everyone is also writing about Liam, but I want to as well. 
          
          Last year today was the worst day of my entire life. My mental health was at rock bottom, and my sh was at its worst. I will never forget the way my mom gasped when her friend sent her the article, asking if I was ok. I didn't even know what had happened. I was grounded from my phone, but all my contacts were texting me. My mom waited until my dad got home from work to say anything. 
          
          I was completely oblivious. Just sitting on my couch, only a minute into the first episode of TFPOBA (because of 1D). 
          
          My dad came and sat next to me after whispering with my mom in the kitchen, and he told me to pause it. I did and he took a deep breath. 
          
          My heart immediately shattered. I shook my head, telling him that it wasn't funny and that you don't joke about that. Then he and my mom showed me what my mom's friend sent her. 
          
          My entire world came crumbling down right in front of my face.
          
          The man who saved me, who helped me through everything, the man I listened to and watched videos of when my friends were all being jerks, was gone. 
          
          I sobbed so hard my older sister had to quite literally hold me together. 
          
          I ran to my room and stared at my posters and pictures and quotes all over my walls. He was everywhere, even on my ceiling. 
          
          My dad came into my room and talked to me, trying to help me, but nothing worked. I was spiraling again and my whole family saw it.
          
          A year later, I've been slowly getting better, but I still have days where I listen to Remember and sob uncontrollably.
          
          Liam, I love you so much. I know I joined the fandom a few years after the hiatus, but you still mean everything to me. Thank you for being the one who saved me.
          
          Sending my prayers to Karen and Geoff, Nicola and Ruth, Kate, The boys, and especially Bear. 
          
          It's been a hard year, but we did it.
          
          Love you guys<3<3<3

5SOS is now officially the only band that hasn't given me trust issues

WHO WAS GONNA TELL ME THAT NEW HOPE CLUB DISBANDED EIGHT FRICKEN MONTHS AGO??!!?!?!?!??!
          I'M IN TEARS

I have a new chapter of TOL up
          yayy

finished my 5sos sweatshirttt!!!
          
          pics in the newest update in my storyyyyyy

Chapter 11 in the works rnnnnnn
          
          Ghost of You on repeatttttttttt

i made a 5sos gc on an app i have and it's so lonley rn lmao

wtf was that...
          
          i'm in love but i also don't know wtf to think...
          
          Ash looked pretty fine tho...
          
          it was a bit sacrilegious with the Jesus (I'm LDS sooooo...) 
          
          i need to process this...

Me before watching the NOT OK music video: ✨⭐
          
          see y'all in three minutes...