bandito_vic_

Hey so A LOT of you guys are friends with a certain person who has caused a lot of harm in my life, including driving my friend to su-cide and continuing to joke after that person’s death, there are actually 2 of them and I have just realized most of you guys are friended with them! These 2 people have caused so much pain in my life just because I know what happened to my friend, and she went through much more, and I’m honestly disgusted that these people are still around and continuing to make friends with people, I feel bad for those who put up with them. For that reason I will not be active on here as much anymore, because while I love all of my friends on here, I do not want to associate with those people ever again and do not like the idea of talking to friends of those people, as much as I like you guys. So if I am hardly active anymore, that is why. Please look close when making online friends, there are disgusting people out there.

lilmisspisswithakiss

@bandito_vic_ Oh my god I’m so sorry
          	  
          	  I’m not very active on here anymore, so I don’t keep up with much. If I’m following this person/these people can you let me know so I can block them? I really don’t wanna be followed/friends with anyone like that
          	  
          	  Once again I’m really sorry, I’m not very good at these things so idk what to say T^T
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bandito_vic_

Hey so A LOT of you guys are friends with a certain person who has caused a lot of harm in my life, including driving my friend to su-cide and continuing to joke after that person’s death, there are actually 2 of them and I have just realized most of you guys are friended with them! These 2 people have caused so much pain in my life just because I know what happened to my friend, and she went through much more, and I’m honestly disgusted that these people are still around and continuing to make friends with people, I feel bad for those who put up with them. For that reason I will not be active on here as much anymore, because while I love all of my friends on here, I do not want to associate with those people ever again and do not like the idea of talking to friends of those people, as much as I like you guys. So if I am hardly active anymore, that is why. Please look close when making online friends, there are disgusting people out there.

lilmisspisswithakiss

@bandito_vic_ Oh my god I’m so sorry
            
            I’m not very active on here anymore, so I don’t keep up with much. If I’m following this person/these people can you let me know so I can block them? I really don’t wanna be followed/friends with anyone like that
            
            Once again I’m really sorry, I’m not very good at these things so idk what to say T^T
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bandito_vic_

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I am genuinely so exhausted of being ignored by everyone I can’t stand it I hate everyone I am tired of trying, I have been nothing but nice to everyone and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, why can’t I make a close friend when it’s the only thing I want in the world? Why do people always fucking ignore me ? I hate everyone, I want to die. 

bandito_vic_

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SHII I LOST FOLLOWERS AND IVE ONLY GOTTEN MOSTLY NEGATIVE RESPONSES WHEN ASKING ABOUT A RELIGION IM INTERESTED IN FUCK IM COOKED PLEASE DONT HATE ME GUYS IM SORRY

Enby_Reed_

@bandito_vic_ I DON'T HATE YOU!!!! SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST(excuse my language) BITCHY SOCK MUNCHERS WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT UR JUST CURIOUS
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bandito_vic_

Adding onto my last post I think another way to phrase it is that I don’t know how to cut off or at last distance from people who I love and who did nothing wrong to me, which is making it so hard to justify because I truly care about them, but it’s getting so overwhelming and it’s causing me to feel very bad, my anxiety has been awful and even though I very much like people it’s affecting me badly, and it seems like the solution would be to just cut them off, but I don’t have a good reason and I’d just hurt them and I’d feel so so guilty and guilt is so bad for me, I just don’t know what to do at all, just a lot of talking to people online and being in online spaces is not being the best for me and I don’t know how to fix it without hurting more people and feeling guilty, which will only make me feel even worse. I just feel very stuck. Please help any advice at all please :((

Enby_Reed_

@bandito_vic_ I would say distancing yourself might make things worse with your mental health, especially if you love them and they didn't do anything wrong. If you are acquainted with someone who has hurt you, I would say distance yourself from those people. I would say maybe not interact as much with people, but don't distance yourself from them. I don't really know how to explain this, but that's the best I could do
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bandito_vic_

If anyone can help me with this please I don’t know what to do, so I’m struggling really bad and I don’t really want to continue talking to a lot of people on more especially on like and it’s not because of anything anyone did it’s just all so stressful and I don’t know how to move on, because I don’t know if I’m supposed to just stop being online on everything? Because the last thing I want to do is hurt other people but everything is getting very hard to manage and I would feel so guilty no matter the outcome, like if I stop talking to people I would but also if I continue it is just not good either, I don’t even know if I’m explaining this properly but it’s stressing me out so bad and I am having such awful anxiety the past while but I am unfortunately very bad when it comes to cutting people off or even saying no to things, I would rather sacrifice my own feelings for other people and I don’t know how to fix it and I feel like now I’m at the point it’s too late and I’m just going to hurt people no matter what I do, and I am going to feel so guilty for the rest of my life no matter what happens and I just don’t know what to do. Does anyone have any sort of advice? I really don’t know what to do about this anymore, I feel like I can’t just stop talking to people especially ones that care about me and I really care about them too, which is why it’s so hard that I just can’t keep doing it anymore, online stuff if just not being very good for my mental health at all and I don’t know at all what to do, I feel sick because of all this, please anybody give me any advice it mean so so much to me, I honestly don’t know what to do :( I’m sorry if this doesn’t make any sense I know it’s confusing but it’s the best I could phrase it :(

bandito_vic_

Hi guys I have a genuine question can somebody please educate me on religion specifically Christianity / Catholicism because it really does not make sense to me and I really don’t want to be negative towards it but I feel like I have just had so many bad experiences with it especially going to Catholic school and I guess I’m just a little confused by it all, like I guess some parts seem contradictory? Or maybe I just don’t understand it properly, I don’t think I’m the most educated on religion so I would be really happy if somebody could help me understand some of it better because I really want to know so I can have a better relationship with that stuff, and I am asking this in the most respectful way possible I am not trying to offend anyone by this at all I promise, I just really want to understand it better and I am pretty sure a lot of you I am friends with on here are religious, and you guys are all such amazing people and so nice to me so I would really appreciate it, I’m sorry if this is a dumb question I just am very confused by it :( mostly the objective I think, and like ‘rules’ (I don’t think that’s what I should call it I’m so sorry I’m not very educated on it), and like views on lgbtq and gender, but anyway I would just like to learn more and again I am so so sorry if me asking is offensive at all I don’t mean it in that way at all I have just had a lot of bad experiences and I really don’t want to feel negatively towards religion because I know it is supposed to be a good thing :( thank you if anyone is willing to help me understand it means a lot <3

ForgottenBanito

@ForgottenBanito bro my autocorrect is insane </3
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ForgottenBanito

@bandito_vic_ okay, this one is coming from a Christian! 
            
            Our belief: It's honestly quite simple! We believe that God sent down his son to a virgin, he grew up to spread the love of God, died on a cross in our place, rose again three days later and forty days later he went back into heaven. We also believe in the holy Trinity (from the baptist POV), God the father, God the son, and God the Holy Spirit
            
            The rules: so, what specific rules you 'have to follow' honestly depend on the denomination. For me, I'm from a Baptist church and we honestly don't have any spoken rules. Yes, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy are all rules BUT! Those were from a time where Jesus wasn't there. In fact, it was hundreds of years before. The main rules we try our best to follow are the ten commandments. Of course, no one is perfect and we will always sin. 
            
            Lgbt: I personally haven't studied this a lot yet (hence me still growing in my faith) but what I do know is that in some beliefs, you aren't even allowed in the church. But, this doesn't mean all. There is a saying from a letter of St. Augustine, saying "live the sinner, not the sin".  If people won't love you for who you are, they should start questioning their faith. Mark 12:31 tells us to live our neighbor as ourselves. This means that we should be living everyone, no matter what they do or where they come from. I feel like that a problem for a lot of 'Christians'. They criticize people for loving who they love yet claim they're still a Christian. 
            
            Gender: again, I haven't really studied much at the moment but this is what I do know: the Lord loves us all, no matter what. And BOYYYY do I mean that. As much as I hate certain people, the Lord still loves them dearly. I'll be sure to get back to you if you'd like! 
            
            Soooo yeah! Of course, none of this is meant to push religion onto you, it's all completely your choice
            
            All love, 
            Bandito/Kenny<3
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Enby_Reed_

@bandito_vic_ So, I go to a Christian school, but am agnostic, which is someone who believes that a "higher power" is unknown or unproven. I don't know much about the New Testament, which talks about Jesus and all that, but I do know something about the Bible that involves queer identities
            It is not a sin. In fact, it never said the word 'homosexuality' until the 40s, since people saw queer relationships as abnormal and not traditional. The verse in the book of Leviticus, I believe, says "Man shall not lie with man", which was a mis-translation. The actual verse was "Man shall not lie with BOY", talking about p3dophelia. A person who worked in the church for YEARS and has read multiple translations of the Bible has confirmed this. Jesus never actually talked about homosexuality
            As for trans/enby/agender/etc people, it's also not a sin. For religious people, God sends beautiful things, but they aren't finished. That's why he sent grain instead of full bread. He sends unfinished things so they can essentially transform into who they become
            Again, I don't know much about Jesus, but I do know that being queer is not a sin, so I hope that helps
            I can ask some friends and get a clear answer on all the Jesus stuff, but that's what I know about the queer side of it. And during my time reading the Bible, there are some things that made me question it, but that happens with everyone
            Hope this kind of helped!
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bandito_vic_

Can anyone please talk with me I don’t know what to do

bandito_vic_

@Enby_Reed_ I guess so, usually I just get worse when I give up on talking to people but I could try again I suppose 
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Enby_Reed_

@bandito_vic_ maybe take a break from trying to constantly talk to people when it fails often, and maybe take some time to focus on your mental health. Since you had said you relapsed and that you're tired of it, it would be wise to take some time and find healthy coping mechanisms and maybe posting every once in a while on here or another platform
            i'll try my best to respond as much as I can when you do post on here, and i'm here if you ever need to talk to anyone for a little while
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bandito_vic_

@Enby_Reed_ I guess so I guess I just am so tired of waiting and trying and not having anyone 
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bandito_vic_

I feel so left out of everything I want a friend who wants to talk to me first who actually likes me I’m so tired of having to beg people to talk to me I feel so pathetic why can’t people like me I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong because people say I am not doing anything wrong but yet they don’t talk to me either I don’t get it I just need a friend so bad who actually likes me I need people to talk to I feel sick I hate being alone I hate being left out I hate it I can’t deal with it I have no irl friends and it’s killing me everyone has friends I can’t do it I can’t