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@bbvachirawit damn- that sucks... I can't even fathom how you would be feeling... and yeah, 2026 is already proving itself to be all fucked up... hope everything else works out for you... hopefully... 
            
            also I just got our first assignment and it's all random grouping and I'm already contemplating the choices of dropping out but man I need the degree

@yinxiayy_ glad you didn't drift too far deep into that chaos. smells stressful even from miles away! and college! oh how I wish I could go back to college days! I'll have to wait another 6 months now. huhu. I took a break from college the past two years after completing my undergraduate degree. special you said? okay, here's something extra unspecial. I was testing my luck with trying for abroad to continue my masters but my visa got rejected not long ago. and in doing so, I missed the intake even here in my home country. 2026 isn't proving to be any better. lol.

@bbvachirawit aw~ thank you for letting me in. and the answer to your question... umm... let me recap my weeks... okay something in-between good and messed up... had a little existential crisis before I found myself drifting back to the depths of understanding my true religion, not the fabricated by culture and societal expectations... so, yeah I'm finally at some peace... 
            
            if we don't talk about the mess of my new sem and exhaustion from college... 
            
            anyways, how about you? 
            
            how's life going? 
            
            anything special? 

@bbvachirawit its really freeing to speak about this openly... Love was so stigmatized by parents when I was a child... I remember being brave enough to speak about my feelings when was in college... The last day of my excursion trip. I shared them vaguely to few guy friends ... And they were so welcoming I felt like crying.. 
            
            Also it's so cute with your girlfriend aww... And yes, it's overwhelming... Im glad you could overcome them...
            
            And that's so sweet to have friends like that ... 
            
            
            It was a really hard decision to take, you know? Confessing? But I thought hey, let's be brave and close this chapter neatly. It was doomed from the start anyways ... I'll take your word for it and definitely reach out after (or before) confessing and tell you how it went. 
            
            I genuinely want to experience love in a gentle manner where it's reciprocal... Like those shown by SarawatTine, ThamePo, TheePeach, etc. 
            
            

@stellsola sob story indeed! and I'm saying this with all the fondness my heart could handle. imagine a shy little suta with such a huge crush on someone at the tender age of 7!! must've been horribly confusing yeah? and YOU KNOW WHAT? TOTALLY RELATE! in a very very different way, in that I understand those big feelings at a tiny age. I had a girlfriend, IMAGINE! when I was that age. I remember only bits and pieces of what we were like: the holding hands, going home together and sharing tiffins, whispering not so secretly during class. we were classmates! can't remember most but IT WAS A BIG DEAL APPARENTLY with our parents being friends and us having exclusive nicknames for each other.  some things will stick with you always, like how despite not remembering most things, I can still clearly recall calling he Kanchan, a name only I was allowed to call he by. lol. what I meant to say is I UNDERSTAND HOW OVERWHELMING THOSE FEELINGS CAN BE. I was lucky enough to not carry them with me for long so I truly hope you can leave them behind too. su su naaaa!
            
            and yeah! I was being a lil over dramatic! my friends do actually really adore and spoil me to oblivion. so guess people do find me sweet. and those hot peoples I mentioned? they're just passing crushes. I'll be moving on to some other people by the end of next week. haha!
            
            anyway I'm glad you're powering through the fog and sticking up for yourself! seek that closure, and live freely. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to! and when I finally bring myself to make an IG account, you'll be the first one I follow!

@bbvachirawit you're really sweet ... I hope people can see that on you too... And i bet someday someone will realize that and you will not have to try that hard too *hugs* 
            
            Im on IG btw ... My username is : @iamstellsola let me know your username so I can go follow you hehe :) 
            
            You definitely should start reading gemfot unhinged ffs (they are in my a03 recs) 
            
            Yes pls recommend!!
            
            
            You know when William sang goodtime ost, it reminded me of Bright so bad! QuQ
            
            

@bbvachirawit well from where I come from—in our household—you'd only get pampering or are considered actually sick is when you're on your deathbed... so take your guess... 
            
            and secondly, c'mon it wasn't my fault they were being so adorable that my mind immediately switched from crushing on the guy to wanting to see the guy be together with his cousin—so if you think like that, I'm probably gonna end up being single because at this point if I ever got a husband, I'll probably end up shipping him with some other guy I'd find him cute with... 
            
            so... yeah single for life. 
            
            not like I'm complaining when I'll have my BL ships to keep me company... 
            
            and yeah no, now I'm feeling better so nothing to worry... 
            
            how about you? 

@xiao_xue_yin I mean if you have someone pampering you and fussing about you constantly, being sick could be enjoying! if not, than it sucks! 
            
            and lol!! shipping your crush with his cousins? I GET YOU! THEM GUYS BE GETTING CUTE AND CUDDLY FOR NO REASONS! 
            
            and no darling, you're not a defective piece! you're just a bl girlie at heart! and you can't escape that nature! lol.
            
            get well soon! 
            love ya

@bbvachirawit I don't know about the exams but enjoying being sick? girl, how am I suppose to enjoy that? my body aches and head feels like it's about to burst. so tell me, how do you enjoy being sick? 

@bbvachirawit I LOVE THAT SM ITS SO UNSERIOUS AND FUNNY 

@stellsola HIIIIIIIII SUTAAAAAAAA! YES! YES! IM WATCHING THE DAMN SHOW, JUST FINISHED THE 2ND EP AND IM DYING LAUGHING!

@xiao_xue_yin I feel so blessed to have you reach out to me all the time. this time I took quite a long break, so apologies for taking quite a while to get back to you! everything's good I guess. it's harvesting season here, so back home, helping my parents in the paddy field and all that agricultural, farm stuff.  how bout you, bub? still studying your ass off for that graduation?

@goingbacktobooks Hiiiiiiiiiii. sorry for the late reply bubb! it's been a hot minute! I hadn't been here since August. things are never the same anymore lol. I miss those times, and the conversations with y'all. how are you? hope life's been treating you fair!

@bbvachirawit same. I've watched High School Frenemy and I'm halfway through Revenged Love though I also started reading MANHWAS recently and I am reading Painter Of The Night (tbh I'm suffering) and my finals ended and have a little time for vacation, my next sem will surely start from either September or October so... yeah at the moment I'm just idling around... 
            
            how's everything else? 

@xiao_xue_yin hiiiiiii bub! Yup, I'm still here, but rarely. Nowadays I've gotten into High School Frenemy and Revenged Love, so I login once in a while when I can't get my fix of SkyNani/SaintShin and CheWei.
            Still jobless and free like a stray dog lol. How are you doing?