I am sure you are wondering why I haven't been updating.. honestly nobody knows me- like the real me. I know I follow some of you on instagram, but still you don't me.
Recently, I have been finding myself too depressed and worn out. Like I want to end everything, this misery, the helplessness etc. I want to find peace, but I can't find it. I don't want to talk to anyone because they pretend to understand, but they don't.
I have been reading so many books just to find some inspiration, but I still can't. I feel like oh, I know what to do now, but when I actually start doing it, everything just vanishes. Its like someone puts their hand in my brain and just takes out the thoughts I have. I hear this voices telling me I'm not enough. Which makes me so desperate to hear someone tell me I'm enough and mean it.
This is not to gain attention or anything. This isn't even 0.001% of what I feel right now. But just a part of what is happening.
I am not giving any excuse, but I feel like I can't write anymore. I can't think anymore. I just want to tell you that please don't give up on me or my books. I just need time. That's all I ask.
Thank you and I'm sorry.