bl0ssomx
I'm tired now huh! :((
booamore
booamore
Um hi hi it’s Riri (formerly @kwanjalebi) I changed my username lol please don’t get confused
jebalheyo333
Bro i just got the notification of a new fic and I was like who is this booamore whom I dont remember following lol I thought that I have amnesia hehe BTW your new name is soooo cute
wonyxngzz
i miss my riri so much :(((
wonyxngzz
@kwanjalebi you don’t need to say sorry for being inactive at all! i hope you’re still taking care of yourself even if your life got a bit overwhelming :) but aside from that, i’ve been pretty good since i’m on cny break but school starts back this friday and i have midterms coming up on march with interviews T-T
booamore
@wonyxngzz STOP I miss you so much too :(( I’m so sorry I’ve been so inactive lately. Life kinda got a little overwhelming and I disappeared for a bit, but seeing your message genuinely made me so happy!! How have you been?? I hope you’ve been okay and taking care of yourself :)
rottedsohard
Just redead midnight rain and now I'm gonna cry myself to sleep <3
booamore
@rottedsohard You reread Midnight Rain?? That makes me so happy, you have no idea TT I’m really sorry for discontinuing it though :(( but thank you for still giving it love and going back to read it again. It truly means so much to me <333
bbh_56
i wont tell you that life would get better or any of these shits people always say when someone goes through a hard time but i’ll say those hard times will pass, those stupid thoughts will come and go sometimes you would do things you deeply regret after but remember the only thing you need in life is being patient nothing can help you out of this dark phase of life other than life itself but you need to give it time because they have their ups and downs sometimes you feel over the moon sometimes you feel like hell but there will be moments where you feel safe and rested and those moments are yet to come
don’t forget you are never alone and if you ever think about doing it think of someone you truly love doing it and how would you feel about it,
booamore
@bbh_56 I’m really sorry for replying so late. I’ve been pretty inactive lately and kind of withdrew from everything for a bit, so I’m only just seeing your message now :( Thank you for taking the time to write all of that to me. It genuinely meant so much. Life hasn’t really been great recently, it’s been heavy in ways I don’t always know how to explain. I’ve just been trying to push through each day even when it feels overwhelming. Some days are okay, some days are harder. Those thoughts still come sometimes, and when they do it’s difficult not to spiral But I’m trying to be patient with myself, to breathe through it to remind myself that it won’t always feel like this. And reading your words honestly helped more than you probably realise. It made me feel seen and less alone in it, even if just for a little while. Thank you for caring enough to say something <3
daechwitamikrokosmos
I'm not sure if I should bring this up here or not but there's been certain out of context, false narrative videos of hoshi that have been circulating on twitter, they're trying to frame him as a pedo. There're certain accounts that are doing this the most( specifically an account called kpopinsider), so it'd be great if more people could report them. It started as a fanwar but
daechwitamikrokosmos
@kwanjalebi yeah I hope they sue all their asses (pardon my language), also when you look at the profiles of the people commenting the vilest stuff you could think of and they have bs like OT7, love yourself+some beautiful lyric from a song in their bio, there's nothing more repulsive than those pretentious and hypocritical fans. Like bold of you to assume that you're fav would even want to associate themselves with you?????
booamore
@daechwitamikrokosmos Exactly. What gets me the most is how some armys constantly preach about being “kind,” “protective,” and morally superior when in reality they’re some of the most vicious people toward every other idol. They disguise hate as protection and then act offended when people call it out. Weaponizing an innocent interaction like that is beyond disgusting, especially when it involves a child. People forget there’s a real family attached to that clip, and imagining them seeing strangers sexualize their child for fandom points is genuinely horrifying. If anything, the family would be completely justified in taking legal action against the people spreading this. And I honestly believe they should.
daechwitamikrokosmos
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@kwanjalebi exactly, also it's crazy that these people act like they're some divine protectors of their fav group, some army tweeted that carats should've stayed out of bts' business about this whole thing AND IT JUST BLEW MY MIND HOW MUCH THESE IDIOTS MISINTERPRET SITUATIONS WHEN EVERYYYYTHING STARTED BECAUSE ARMYS WERE TALKING SHIT ABOUT SEVENTEEN. They act like everyone except them hates bts when in reality, they're projecting their own hateful nature on others. All of this has always been the root cause of these malicious activities. How could someone have the audacity to weaponise an innocent interaction like that. Imagine if this has already reached the family of that kid, how must they be feeling. Those trying to justify the actions of these people disgust me and there ARE people doing that.
booamore
Should I delete Midnight Rain altogether or let it stay? I’ve already mentioned in the description that it’s discontinued, but I still see people adding it to their TBRs or starting to read it
I don’t want to mislead anyone, so I’m not sure what the best option is :(
daechwitamikrokosmos
@kwanjalebi don't delete it, even I keep incomplete books in my library sometimes, just because I liked them a lot
booamore
I have to say this because it genuinely makes me so happy
One of the absolute best things that’s happened to me since joining this platform is meeting Jia. When I tell you I love her, I mean it SO much. It hasn’t even been that long since we became friends, but she makes me feel unbelievably loved and appreciated, and she is truly one of the kindest, sweetest humans I’ve ever met!
AND SHE DEDICATED A WHOLE DAMN FANFICTION TO ME. And it’s about my bias. Like??? CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??? I'm freaking out thinking about it.
Please please go read “A Thousand Stars” by @floreshwa it’s beautiful and deserves all the love everrrr
SavageSugar3
@kwanjalebi @floreshwa My ship is sailing TvT Jokes aside, the bond between you guys is so endearing. Rly happy you found eo. Hope this kind of friendship finds all of us <3
booamore
Hello everyone, I read every single comment on my announcement about discontinuing Midnight Rain. I may not have had the capacity to reply to everyone individually, but please know that I saw each one, and I’m deeply grateful. Thank you for showering this story with so much love and care, it truly means more than I can put into words.
I also want to be honest. After that post, I reached a very low point and tried to do something I’m not proud of. Things haven’t suddenly become better, and I don’t want to pretend they have, but I’m still here, and I’m trying to learn how to be a little kinder to myself and appreciate my own existence a little more than I did before.
Writing has been extremely hard for a while now. I don’t know when, or if, I’ll ever write another fic. I hope I do someday, but for now I’m taking things one step at a time.
Thank you, truly, to everyone who has shown so much love to Midnight Rain and to me. Your care means more than I can properly express <3
cheolscoup
@ kwanjalebi it's okay, things happen as you go. And that's the worst part a writer can go through. The lowest point of being a writer. But hey, it's alright, and it won't last forever. There are meant to pass eventually. I'm glad you're choosing yourself, and i hope you'll love yourself both the best and worst version. That's what makes us humans. So please don't ever feel guilty if you take a break or if it just doesn't do right. Take a breath, discover new things, live your life; nobody's going to accuse you from doing so. We love you very much, and we're rooting for you, Riri<3
wonyxngzz
you don’t need to feel guilty about it, i also really hope you’ll feel better soon! please take care of yourself, put yourself first <3 i’ll be waiting, i love you <3
hotteokki06
@kwanjalebi I understand you very much because maybe or maybe not I'm going through some things for which I am not able to do things which I liked and loved . Sometimes i too feel like I have reached the ending point . Clouds covering my sight . It won't turn out okay if I say everything is gonna be fine but take your time and have some deep breath . If it's the lowest point then you're soon gonna reach upwards .
cheolscoup
So i finished "Midnight Rain"......
No, Midnight Rain finished ME (╥﹏╥)
First of all, I wanna thank you for writing that story author. Like i saidw you're really amazingw talented and your mind is gorgeous. I really admired your writing and i learn so much from it. The way you write the characters, the way you let the story breathe, as if really existed makes me speechless. (╥‸╥)
But then when i saw the new covers I was stuck in awe. THEY LOOK SO GOOD <333. But when i saw "DISCONTINUED" My heart sank. Ngl, I didn't want to continue reading because i was scared, and anxious. Not because your story wasn't great. But i know i'll get my heart broken.
Howeverw i continued reading, and GOD I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED. Because i remember that it's YOU who is writing, so that was enough for me to keep going. I got so immersed, felt everything so much, like i could imagine you frowning about one sentencew rewritting over and over. Trust me, it's wasn't just great, it was beautiful and unreal ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)
But then i read your note, and gosh my heart shattered. I felt so sad, because it felt like a sudden goodbye. But reading your reasons shift my view. The story didn't just abruptly end, it just closed the door, for a new beginning. So I didn't see it as the end, i saw it as the beginning. You left me imagining the rest and that's a creative move. ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧
I wouldn't say that i'm not sad by you loosing interest of the story. Because forcing to write something you fell out of love is unfair to the story itself and to you the author. So, i hope you don't blame yourself or regret your decision. I stand by that. If you ever think of continuing it some days, I'll be happy. But if not, i'll still be grateful. It doesn't change how i love your stories and i admire you very much<3
I'll be looking forward to your next stories, Ririദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧
booamore
@cheolscoup This genuinely made me emotional. Thank you so so much for taking the time to write something this thoughtful and kind. I don’t think you realize how much your words mean to me, especially right now. Things have been really hard lately, and messages like this are honestly what keep me going and remind me why I ever started writing in the first place. Knowing that the story made you feel something, that you trusted me enough to keep reading even when you were scared, that you saw the ending not as an end but as a beginning, that means everything to me. Truly. I carry those thoughts with me more than you know. I never wanted to hurt anyone by stepping away from the story, and reading your understanding and compassion lifted a weight off my chest. Thank you for seeing me not just as a writer, but as a person too :) I’m endlessly grateful for you, for your support, and for the love you’ve given my stories. I hope I can keep creating things that find their way to hearts like yours <333