Okay everyone look away for a sec while I embarass myself...
So I'm rereading A Thousand Stars by @floreshwa for the third time, and I fear I may never shut up about this book.
Yes, part of the reason is that it's dedicated to me, but the bigger reason is that Jia wrote it for me when I was going through one of the worst periods of my life. I felt so alone back then. I genuinely believed I was unlovable and that nobody would notice if I disappeared. And there were days when I didn't want to be here at all.
But that fic made me feel loved again. It reminded me of years ago, when I was going through something similar and found Seventeen — especially Seungkwan — and how they pulled me back from the deep abyss I was in. And every time I read it, it reminds me that someone cared enough to write hundreds of thousands of words just to tell me that I deserved love too. Byeol feels so much like me that sometimes it's ridiculous. Sometimes it's comforting. Sometimes it makes me cry.
Anyway, this is just a very long-winded way of saying that I love love love Jia very much and I will never ever get tired of appreciating everything she does for me and all the ways she makes me and everyone else around her feel so loved <333
