bookworm3159

I'm hoping you're all doing okay. And knowing how loved you all are.
          
          Im writing this while listening to Matilda by Harry Styles and You're gonna go far kid by Noah Kahan. I'll add a content warning of family abandonment and just over all sadness.
          
          I officially got disowned today. Told that im a deceptive spiteful liar. Through a letter. And im staring at the words my own mother wrote to me and just.... feeling like my heart has been ripped out.
          
          Some favorite lines of mine from this letter:
          
          "As we both know, you have no intention of having children of your own, so you will never know how profoundly and deeply the rejection of a child hurts a parent. Perhaps this is your ADHD/Autism that prevents you from having that level of compassion for someone else; I wouldn't know."
          
          "The person I thought I knew over the past 28 years, is clearly not your true character and I'm not clear if that was intentional deception, a facade or role playing; the answer to that I may never know since we apparently did not have an honest, forthcoming relationship during those years."
          
          "When you come to an understanding of what it is that you want from your parents, feel free to let me know. Do not call or text me, as that appears to be a trigger for you."
          
          And well... at least I dont have to go through life with what ifs any more for talking with her.
          
          I am okay. I swear. I just needed to post up somewhere. To put out positivity into the world, something ive always strived for. So again, in case no one has told you today. You are loved. You are important. And you matter so much for no reason at all. Just because you are a person and that is more than enough.
          
          I cant wait to begin writing again. To help make the world be a better place and know that the first daughter cycle of my family stops with me.
          
          -Book

How have you been?

Quick life update: Hi Everyone. I hope you're all doing well. I just wanted to write this quick update for you as I haven't been posting chapters nearly as much as I want to.
          I was officially diagnosed with PMDD last month. My doctor has started trying to put me on anti depressants to see if it can help. As such. I'm in the middle of a brain chemical nightmare. Between the ADHD meds, the hormone stabilization meds, and the Anti-depressants my body is trying to figure out what's going on. Add in my normal Seasonal Affect Disorder and we're honestly lucky I'm getting out of bed at the moment. We're hoping the meds either stabilize by this time next month, or I start the cycle over again with new meds/dosages.
          
          As many of you may have guessed, I also work full time as a Mechanical Engineer. Sadly, in the US where I live, this doesn't make enough for me to be affording my current cost of living and paying off the combined almost 100k in student loans and credit card debt. As such, all of my extra hours have been going towards gig work, where I am right now spending another 20 to 30 hours a week outside of my engineering job working. This is with the goal of being fully debt free in the next 8 months. I could be taking it easier, but I am trying to be aggressive with getting out from under this mountain.
          
          This means I'm having less and less time as well as motivation to get writing done. I'm still trying to progress things, and I maybe get 100 words at day if I can force myself to sit that long. But I'm honestly not sure it's moving much past that for a while. At least until the meds get sorted.
          
          I want to thank you all for sticking with me. For being understanding as I try to hunker down a bit more. I'm really trying to focus on a life sprint at the moment with the hope of being full debt free before I hit 30 in 2027. Mainly cause I'd like to have the extra time to focus on not only these stories, but my own fully original series/works as well.
          Thank you again! 
          -Book

Me looking at my updates in the past few hours.... 
          
          And all my mind can supply is the gif of Will Ferrell going, "Well that escalated quickly."
          
          Hope you're all doing well!!
          
          -Book

For all my readers in the US. This Saturday, June 14th, is No King's Day. Please, if you are physically able, attend one of the thousands or protests taking place. If you don't know where to start visit nokings.org to find the closest protest to you.
          
          Know that if you support Trump, you are not welcome her. You are not welcome at my hearth I cast you out with a vengeance and will never grant you sanctuary in my home. You have foresacken me and mine, and have thus been foresacken in turn. May your plants wither and your labor always be fruitless. So mote it be.
          
          If you don't hear from me by Monday, know that I have likely been arrested at my own protest. But I will not stay silent during these times of fascism and injustice. I will go down swinging and in the words of Carl Schurz "My country right or wrong: if right, to be kept right, if wrong, to be set right". I'm making damn sure this shit show gets set right.
          
          -Book

Hi, I really love your stories and continue to reread them because they are so good and I just wanted to let you know that they brighten up my day when I’m feeling down. So thank you for writing them☀️

Something wicked this way comes!!!!! Update!!!! Please 

Hi, I am a new reader of your stories and I can tell you whole heartedly I love them so much . I have been reading them through out the course of this week and it has been my me time thing and they are great. ❣️

Thank you for the Dragon Scales update!!!

Hello lovely,
          
          I just wanted to check in and make sure you were okay. We haven't heard from you in a while, and you seemed so motivated to write more proactively, so I wanted to see if everything was alright. This is NOT me pressuring you to write more, just making sure you're alive and taking care of yourself. I know the world is burning chaos right now, but I wanted to reach out and see how you were holding up <3