Death just feels so unreal to me. Like what do you mean I'm never going to see my favorite person ever again? What do you mean I'm never going to get to talk to them again? I'm never going to walk with them again? I'm never going to eat with again? I'm never going to hear their voice again?
What do you mean I'm having to say goodbye forever? Showing up at their funeral. Laying awake at night hoping that it's all just some messed up dream, and that they're still with me.
I was never good with goodbyes. Wishing that it was just a "goodbye! You soon/later!" But instead, it's a goodbye forever. It feels so unreal that I'm never getting a goodbye back. Death feels like something that only happens in movies or tv shows.
Death is a normal thing, and it's a natural thing. You don't expect them to go so soon especially. And maybe when that happens, maybe that's why it feels so unreal?
(I just lost my nana, my best friend, to cancer of 7 years. She is the most genuine person and has such a sweet and kind soul. I just can't believe my best friend is gone forever )