I just finished reading Kaleidoscopic, I want to say that I hate you and I wish you never wrote that book and I wish I never read it. This book shattered me, I've never felt so many emotions from reading a book, and trust me, I've read a lot of books before. The thing that stood out to me about this book, is that I hated Evan, I hated Danny, and I hated Jackson. I hated them. I was so angry I wanted to stop reading. But I pushed through. I realized that I only hated them because I never gave them a chance. I never realized that people do truly make mistakes. Reading this has opened my mind, taught me about forgiveness. I only started reading this because I heard something through a friend that I should read it and that I will connect with Evan in many ways. The one way that stood out to me was that he lost his mother. I also lost my mother, I have been angry at her since she passed. But the more I understood Evan, I understood that I shouldn't be angry. I shouldn't be sulking in grief, but instead be happy to have memories of her, happy that she lived a full life. She was a drug addict, but she recovered. For me, but I still hated her every time she relapsed. I never realized that instead of pushing her away, I needed to pull her in, give her help. I fear this book will haunt my memories, but I wont be angry about it, Ill be happy that I was able to read such a masterpiece. You are a great author and I loved the book, you write like a poet. It's amazing, and it's some of the best writing I've ever read. So what I want to say is that I hate you and this book, but behind my hate is love. I love you and this book. Kaleidoscopic truly grabbed my heart, played with it, then shattered it, only to piece it back together. It'll always have some cracks, but I will learn to look past it. Thank you for writing this book and opening my mind, I truly mean it.
