Ooh poem time 

I hate the number 2, because it's what I've always been.
Since elementary school I've walked the the grass that is next to the sidewalk, I've walked behind a pair with joined arms, I've sat alone in the backseat of a car, I've been silenced in conversations with others. "Well-I" I would say for the first time, "well-i" I would try again figured third times a charm right? "Well-i" and no one even glances my way.

I envy family in books and tv shows because I realized I could never form a friendship like that. Someone would be willing to die for me? I could barely convince anyone to want to hangout, so I formed the relationships with characters in books.

I idealize romance and love, in Hope's that one day it will feel this void in my heart and this voice in my head telling me I will never be enough. I pretend my eyes don't glow green when I see videos of friends doing everything together.

I want to be liked, I want to be loved, I want everyone to stop leaving, I want to be seen, I want to be heard, and I want to be someone's world but that isn't realistic for a second choice ? (not originally by me)

Lazy hazy days are for falling in love, don't you think?  :,)