There is a boy that really likes me. I like him too. He always tell me he wants to be my boyfriend but I keep telling no he can't. But he still insists. He didn't know I liked him and that's why he thinks I say no when he makes a preposition to be with me; And that is when I explained why we could not be together. I told him that I was in love with him and that I would willingly get into a relationship with him in a heartbeat but the problem is my dad. He got very vexed with me and stopped talking to me for a couple of days. My dad doesn't want me to have a boyfriend and if I get one he's going to kick me out of the house. If he kicks me out of the house my godfather would hurriedly take me in and I don't mind but I don't know if my godfather will allow me to have one either even though he's really nice but I'm afraid to ask him. I really want a boyfriend and I've asked God to make my dad permit me to have one. I don't see why I can't have a boyfriend. My parents have been together since my mom was 11 and my dad 21; did they make a mistake back then and is it that they are afraid that I might make that same mistake as well. If so they should know dad I am old enough to make my own decisions and that in a couple of years it will be legal for me to have sexual experiences, not that I will because a majority of teens today are getting pregnant and I want to remain in the minority until I'm independent and am working for my own monetary income that can benefit me and my future family.
I have tried explaining to the mentioned boy why I can't have a boyfriend but he still insists on us getting together.One of my friends like him as well and since she is allowed to have a boyfriend I've tried setting them up since they knew each other before I knew her but he keeps denying my request for them to get together and continues to pursue his love for me, which is really sweet but I've told him over and over that it is bad for him to to build up on feelings and emotions that I know he would like to further express, but he refuses.And that makes me love him ever so more,knowing that he isn't willing to give up on me too soon.
But it just goes to show that you can't have love without freedom for example, my sister is going to be 18 in a few months and she is still not allowed to have a boyfriend either but she has one secretly but they most frequently speak on Facebook since the world is such a small place and if they are ever seen together she is going to have to suffer the consequences. As for me and -------, I guess I'll have to keep on trying to pry him away from me even though I love him so dearly; but he is going to give up eventually and it's then that I can say my pillow is filled with tears; for what I cry now is merely a river and what i'll cry tomorrow will be the ocean so deep.
