VENT//
i love being honest to my friends about a shitty way i felt and them then acting like theyre in a cage with a rabid fucking animal walking on eggshells!!! god how badly i wanna keep talking to them yet i cant say anything or beg them to keep speaking to me due to me being rude asf and cutting them off!! by telling them not to call me "bud" anymore just bc i got jealous when they called someone else that!!! god i wanna beg them to keep talking to me and being nice to eachother but i had to ruin everything with my stupid feelings and honesty!!! i spoke to them hoping for a way to fix it but all they said was "uh. thanks for being honest. sorry you feel that way" which makes me feel like a complete fucking asshole!!! i now set my status to offline bc i feel like such bs i should probably isolate myself before i make every conversation about my mental health <333