ilias.

it's dead here. ff.

our second year is approaching, and i hope we reach a third after this. i want my love to forever be yours.

reach out to me.

going into the new year with my true love and friends. hope i can stay happy and continue growing for the better.

hey, i hope everyone is okay. if not, that’s okay too; i hope easier days will come your way.

hey. it’s been awhile, and it’s much easier to breathe now. it’s funny how i always run back here, treating this account as a little journal. no one’s checking up on me anyhow. oh, and update; i met someone. we’ve been dating since may. for the first time, i’ve allowed myself to be loved. truly loved. without guard, or a mask. it’s, a beautiful thing. this was fate, i really do believe, i could see the other end of this red string upon stumbling across them. it’s so intriguing how. one person. can change everything for you. they’re my person. and everyday, i have something to look forward to after awaking. even on days where grey clouds seem endless. they remind me that there’s an opening somewhere; if i look close enough, i’ll be able to find a peeking glimpse of the sun; hope. ah, again, while it has been awhile, it has also been a little easier to breathe.

i am nothing

holding my head, trying to cry but nothing will come out. hunched over, the curve of my stature mocking a crescent moon on an evening where dull clouds linger and refuse to let go of its rain.

everyday, all day long, i have to keep myself from bursting out into tears for unknown reasons. i want out of my own skin. i know i’m nothing but i don’t want to feel that way anymore. why is invulnerability so much to ask for.

the being shatters much like its heart.