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miss u bro hope u good 

hi guys , sorry I haven’t been active.
          I’ve been moving and stressed and stuff,I’ll start writing again soon. I promise <3

“ I hate it when u lie I hate it when make me laugh , even worse when u make me cry I hate it when ur not around and the fact that u didn’t call, but mostly I hate the I don’t hate you , not even close.. not even a little bit , not even at all . . “

You tell me lies as you lay me down under the lights , shaking me to tears, wrapping me up in fears .
          God only knows what you want,
          My heart is what you got .
          Hell is my home and you are the feeling of being alone  ,
          My body is the only 
          thing you wanna do.
          I find it hard to believe that I am fine but everyone seems to believe the lie so why can’t I, you light up the room and I become you’re fool ,
          Is it so wrong loving you.
          I’m a sinner as you cover me up in your holy water, 
          showering me away, 
          sometimes 
          your touch takes the pain away 
          You kiss me and I die inside.
          Knowing secretly that this love isn’t mine , my heart screams out for your arms when I cry .
          Knowing I’m dying every time,
          Nobody sees and I can not hide the pain inside, the love I have is strong but only for you .
          I’d love to 
          roll around 
          the bed with you,
          That’s the only feeling I get of something new .
          Knowingly I’ll never completely have all of you 

I find it no longer easy to breathe.
          My lungs feel like I’ve had one too many cigarettes. , I light myself on fire and burn myself out . I cut and shape myself out, and soon I begin to find out. Love is not what we’re about ‘
          My heart aches in pain,  I cry
          tears into the ocean 
          and the ocean is my pain, 
          I can not swim so I drown 
          in my pain 
          as my skin begins to fade, trying to  renew as I begin to break .
          Heavens door await as I cut cut cut away , 
          to god is where I pray 
          but my body is where hell  awaits 

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