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kinda concerning how i can barely remember a thing about my childhood but I can remember my dreams pretty well
          anywho i love those brown sugar cinnamon pop tarts

i ended up hanging out with on of my old straggot friend and his cousin and i'd have to give the experience a 4.5/10
          pros: free pizza, I wasn't at my house, met his neighbor's dog, made milkers out of snow, listened to throwbacks, his dad thought I was a guy, human interaction, they found my discord kitten voice interesting
          cons: straggot, men, got deadnamed and misgendered the entire time, they're neurotypicals, got called a theater kid, accidentally brought up past trauma, had to briefly talk about how I almost snuck out to a mutual friend's place and how 'chaos' might have ensued, my tics were being rude, cold, etc........

as soon as i get comfy with my pronouns and sexuality my dysphoria likes to barge in my life like my childhood trauma 
          'oh yeah? u think ur a transmasc no-beeny bitch? huh?? u think u identify as queer and use they/them pronouns?!? THINK AGAIN!! *bink bonk*"
          ..........im just tryna vibe, not break down:(((((((

ive gone back into that creative phase of popping out OCs and getting story ideas from my dreams and music playlists... and I made a vil. duo that I rlly like............. they're both androgynous and a part of the alphabet mafia
          i feel like that's just me projecting onto my char. again but eh.. they're hot

so i dont have my phone right old news blah blah anywho my little brother asked me to play among us with him tmrw bc we used to play together and he was in a good mood. i had to decline cause yknow how am I supposed to play..... the kid was heartbroken and I swear I hate him sometimes but that broke my heart a bit.. I'm becoming too soft

OK SO I GOT THE LITTLE COLOGNE THINGIES THE MHA FANDOM CAME UP WITH AND IM AUFJHKSUJHG LIKE GRRRRRRR BARK BARK BARK BARK 
          PLEASE I HAVENT FELT THIS GENUINELY HAPPY IN SO LONG AND AAAAAA
          LIKE MY MOM WAS ON MY ASS ABT HOW ITS A 'MANS' SCENT AND BLAH BLAH BUT I COULD CARE LESS

sometimes i sit back and just remember that I used to be addicted to human! bill cipher fics........ and then i'd cry....

so instead of finishing up a 3-5 sentence summary for bio,  I binge watched multiple series and finished 2 mangas...... 
          
          AND ID DO IT AGAIN BAP BAP BAP

i do be the first follower  >:))