hey guys! i know i haven't been really active on wattpad since, well, three days after the best day of my life, but i am here now and i'm actually going to try and do some writing!! but first i need some help. have you ever had something so unforgettable happen to you that once it's over you cannot help but to relive it every minute of everyday? ESPECIALLY when you're alone with no one to help block it all out.. to be your buffer state. i find it's worse when i hear other people talking about it like it just happenned five minutes ago or as if they're still living it.. it doesn't seem real! when i think about it, i like to pretend that it's all mine and no one will ever be able to touch it. but i know that that is not always true, no matter how much it should be. that moment, those series of moments will live forever.. just not with me in my present while i'm here typing about how much i wish i were there. time just caught up with me i guess. so now here i am, universe!! i hope you let this website or some other miraculous thing help me discover what to do!! thanks.. if you're even listening.