I'm a depressed person who has a sleeping and anxiety disorder. I have bipolar disorder too. I probably have BPD too. 
My life is crappy.
I love books.
Books and music are my coping mechanism. Shawn Mendes is literally the reason I'm still alive. #MendesArmy
I don't have people who understand me.

"To be alive is to be missing" - John Green

I love books by John Green, Rick Riordan (godly parents are poseidon and hades), Jennifer Niven and James Dashner.

I love music by Shawn Mendes, Ariana Grande, 5SOS and a billion more.

I'm also suicidal.

I am also a feminist.

I contemplate whether my existence matters in this huge world.

I'm alone.
I'm a failure.
Sarcasm is my only defence against bullies.

Any 'All the Bright Places' peeps out there's?

I literally have nothing else to say about me.
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  • JoinedSeptember 8, 2019


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deadinside268 deadinside268 Oct 13, 2019 09:24AM
Hi! I’m gonna delete this account because I’m going through a really rough patch and I can’t handle it. I’m not killing myself. I’m just taking a break. I’m sorry to those friends I’ve made here, esp...
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