destemidaazure

So... My birthday's in 0501...
          	
          	Happy birthday me...?
          	
          	ƪóᴥóƪ

destemidaazure

I'm so done, I really need to finish the third chapter for "good boy gone bad" but I have a huge test tomorrow but my heart and brain has been nagging at me to finish the damn chapter.
          
          Not only that, I, Janice, officially failed my freaking math test today.
          
          I MEAN THE RESULTS IS NOT OUT YET BUT I'M 100% SURE I FAILED IT

destemidaazure

this message may be offensive 
What is the fear of being judged called?
          
          Because of my fear, that makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong at every second in my life. I feel like someone is judging me, and making horrible statements about me even though I know that's not true.
          
          I feel like I'm arrogant, bitchy, stupid, impulsive, overdramatic, fake, an asshole and other horrible things that are in the dictionary.
          
          I try to comfort people, when I can't even comfort myself.
          
          What do I have exactly?
          
          My friends at school tell me my smile is blinding but, I'm sure most of you have heard of this quote before:
          
          "The saddest people smile the brightest."
          
          I don't even know why I'm sad, I just... Feel horrible really. Not sad. I guess it was just misinterpreted.
          
          Every time I wanted to post a comment, I always hesitate for a long time and thought, 'what if people doesn't care? What if people take it the wrong way? What if people is bothered by my comment?' 
          
          So many what ifs appear in my mind, that it seems impossible that a person can think of so many things. 
          
          Sometimes I have the urge to write these kinds of things but I always thought 'what if they think I'm fake? What if im just being too overdramatic? Other people has it worse than me. Why am I complaining? What if..' 
          
          It's just a never-ending cycle of torture. 
          
          
          
          
          Also I'm sorry for this rant, i just wanted to throw my frustrations away really. I targeted it to the dump, but that seems impossible. I'd be throwing it to myself then.

destemidaazure

My bias in Itzy is definitely Chaeryeong, she's so stable! Plus her visuals, imo, is just amazing!
          
          (also my classmates are always talking about when txt will debut that it's getting annoying,no hate on them, just wanted to throw my frustrations away)