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@himynameisbob4276 
          Hiii, 
          I’m so sorry, I wasn’t allowed to use my iPad cuz my marks were so bad. I can use my laptop tho so yay! Also my dumbass just realised that I’m supposed to message in YOUR account and not on mine soo… sorry for messaging like this. Umm… is it okay if  I keep messaging u on my account? I’m okay with anything actually u choose.
          ANYWAY
          How are you?
          It’s summer vacation for me and I’m in Kerala, India, what are you doing? Wait
          When is ur summer holidays? 
          I hope u are doing well and I hope you are eating well and I hope you are happy and proud of yourself because you should be.
          Byeee

@himynameisbob4276
          hey, 
          i was paniking yesterday cuz i didnt see ur account
          it kept saying "user not found"
          what happened?

@himynameisbob4275
          heyyyyy, 
          so sorry for practically ignoring u for like the past 4 days but i just wanted to talk cuz i have my quarterly exams coming up, so i wont be using wattpad for like 2 fucking weeks so T-T T-T. ANYWAY 
          how u been? i saw some of ur post so, r u eating better now? just eat smth small so that ull get enough nutrients, and if u ever wanna talk im here and u have a bunch of people on wattpad who would be happy to talk/listen to u!
          NOW 
          guess what?
          since my cousins (3 girls) came over for eid, they put mehendi for me with a stencil and im sooo happy! they stayed for 4 days and had to leave yesterday tho so TT
          but when they were there all 4 of us were in my bed, and we watched a movie 'dangal' @ like 2 am (the lil one slept already tho) and then slept @ 5 fucking 30 (our parents didnt know[we watched it on my ipad])
          it was so much fun!
          anyway how u been?

@himynameisbob4275 thxxx, same to u ! <33

Do you ever get that feeling, where you just lost a moment of your life? I had that once... nothing big, just went to the mall with my mom. And we entered a shop, we were picking out cloths she could take a meeting with. We were in a shop named Redtag I think. And we went into the changing room and then suddenly we were in a different shop, a different changing room. I thought we were still in Redtag but once we stepped outside the changing room I noticed that the layout of the shop was... different. I told my mother, asked her if we were still in Redtag or if they changed the layout, she told me that we were in a different shop. I told her how I felt like I missed the part were we got out from the other shop and entered this one. She said that it wasnt a big problem that I must have fell asleep or some shit, but I didnt feel like that, I am sure that I did not fall asleep like that. Now I'm-... I dont really know what I feel about that. I dont know if I should be scared, worried or if I'm just paranoid. But what if that feeling gets worse? Im still 13, Im not too happy about my life but I do love it, many bad or unpleasant  things have happen, my parent are disappointed with me, they dont trust me because I have broken their trust so many times, I dont really trust many family members, I keep getting bad marks, I dont have energy, I dont socialise (my mom hates that I dont socialise) but life can be happy,I dont have suicidal thoughts, I never have (but I know that many other people do have them),i dont get abused, the times I hang out with my friends in school, out of school a few times, laugh with them, tell my best friends secrets in a way that they all know more about me than my own parents, my own family. Sometimes I think that my friends know more about me than I do myself, and I dont want my life to be erased, to be forgotten by myself, I dont want my life to be going around me while Im just stuck in my own head! I dont want my life to become a mess...

@himynameisbob4275
          Heyyy Ari,
          YOU HAVE 237 FOLLOWERS, OMGSSS CONGRATS!! Ur doing sooo goodddddd broooo!

@Himynameisbob4275
          hey ari,
           i saw this in a wattpad comment and i dont know if u knew this already but u could have a character say 'i put the pan in panic attack' cuz like he/she/they are pan and they have pan-ic attacks, like bi- panic type of thing. its just smth i had on my mind.

@Himynameisbob4275
          heyyy ari, 
          did u ever listen to parents by YUNGBLUD ? 
          its a really good song, but please dont watch the music video, i did and now im traumatised T-T T-T

@Himynameisbob4275
          heyy girll, 
          this is ur happy message! (im so so so sorry if this one isint as good as the last one i kinda put everything i wanted to say it that one and my mind isnt too good at motivational things so...)
          howz ur day going?
          also u have 56 followerss, CONGRATS !!!! 
          ur so dam amazing and dont u DARE forget that!!
          idk much bout ur brother or friends but i am sure that they're proud of u! and if they're not then they dont know what a creative and kind mind u have!
          cuz i dont know u that well, i mean, we online, in an app for mentally unstable   people and yet i feel so proud of u!
          be happy with ur self and do not care what others think,k?

@Himynameisbob4275
          hey girll, 
          this is ur daily happy message! 
          u r doing great!
          ur in 6th grade and yet u write amazing books, u have a mind filled whith creativity
          u have 19 works!!!
          u have 29 followers because u write so well! they followed u because u deserve it!
          i have never met u and yet i like u so much
          u r so nice, ur writing is amazing, and u deserve to live a good life!
          live happy, u can do wonderful things, and a breakdown is always gonna be there, and u should have a breakdown life is hard, people expect alot from u, but dont care about that u dont owe anyone anything, live ur life however u want to, but DO NOT degrade urself. i do not care if it is ur subconsciousness is telling that u r not enough, because u are! and do not let anyone else degrade u either! stand up to them , ignore them, bit do not EVER think they r right, THEY R NOT! and if someone gives u a complement  TAKE IT WITH PRIDE! be happy with ur self and do not care what others think,k?