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if anyone is seeing this.. I need tips on how to improve writing

dear future self, this is me writing my first “dear future” because i’ve been wanting too since for so long lmao… i wonder what it looks like.. to be honest i’m kinda scared to find out hehehe.. but honestly if you’re living a life for if luxury i’m proud of you.. if you’re living a life full of love i’m proud of you.. even if your failing in everything it’s alright.. friends are there.. your parents are there.. or maybe if you already have a lover… then thats good.. i’ve always been wanting to know what it looks like or what changed for so long.. maybe met new friends or you went back home to meet the fam.. i’ve always dreamed of the future.. not that i can predict my own future but i just feel like something is gonna change.. maybe i’m getting a job or getting my first car who knows lol.. but want i want is a change.. i dotn want to be stuck in a boring life yk.. i want to be a human who wants to go to parties or go to the beach with friends or even go to another country… we’ll see future self :))

I’m motivated to make myself a better person

i’ve been admiring the stories, letters, diaries about love happiness and self care <33

I think i’m into journaling and writing diaries 

life lately has been hard to me.. getting treated differently because i’m from another country is hard and depressing, yeh. but I still found my way into happiness… meeting friends, laughing with them… crying with them.. studying with them.. it’s been so fun and full of happiness and love. I know not everything in life is supposed to be beautiful, but whenever i go to school.. in the mornings all i’m looking forward to is meeting my friends and having a great time in school learning( maybe eating my lunch) the saddes thing about it is leaving.. i know some people out there hate school, but actaully to me it’s the only place to escape my home… i usually cant go out because my parents think i’m irresponsible or when they think soemthing bad happens to me.. it makes me sad. I understand that their concerned, and im not bothered but if they can’t find the trust in me it’s okay. i’m okay with things that way… i’ll learn.. i’ll learn how to be street smart.. i’ll learn their ways… i’ll learn how to save money.. i’ll learn how to gain their trust.. i mean it’s still my parents and it’s my job to be a good daughter.. even if it’s too hard for me, it’s never impossible. nothings impossible.. we’ll live, learn, and die knowing that there’s still much to learn. Learning how to love and care is the most important thing and probably my most favourite thing to learn. it’s hard sometimes yes. but that doesn’t mean its time to give up. living a life full of love and trust is one of the biggest flex in this f-uped world :)

My life in another country is peaceful, chaotic, hurtful, sad, maybe boring. but still , meeting a bunch of new friends l, new people, learning about all the new cultures… is pretty fun and whimsical.

Lol some of the stories in the my library are crazy

I cant believe it’s been a year and a half, we’ve grown so much

okeyy, i’m treating wattpad convos as my own public diary