@endlessgoodbyes your not a failure, your mom's boyfriend sounds mean and unreasonably so , we understand for not updating tho, you have alot on your plate , just focus on what matters most to you and then everything else will follow suit and be okay, love you . Keep you head up high, your a beautiful and strong , not to mention smart , and amazingly imagitive, and talented . Just do you , and make you happy and those who truly love and care for you will just be happy that your happy , . I hope this helped . if you ever need someone I'm hereyour never alone