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@xXDarkLegendzXx what is this behaviour xD

A year and a half in your arms and I'm yearning for so many more. 

You're my home.
            And I'm hoping I'm able to come back here years later and think to myself with a smile, he's still my home. and always will be. 

I think the thought of losing you, scares me less than the thought of not loving you any longer. 
            I've recognised my heart to always be one which yearns to wander in search of something new. While some may say it's romantic and i am nothing but a free soul, i always believed there existed a sense of loneliness and a fear of commitment which drew me away from the loving arms of a man.
            I've had countless minor heartbreaks, yet each of them was a little easier to handle because i was the one to leave. It was me who lost feelings, me who was fascinated by the unexplored world in front of my eyes, teasing me; asking me to come explore the wild.
            
            But this time, it's you.
            And it fears me to think of a day where i could come to not love you anymore. It seems impossible, funny really. There's nothing in this world I've loved as much as i love you and i wake up each day, wanting to let you realize and know the same.
            I was once an aspiring closeted poet, bleeding words on crumpled sheets of paper. But now that i want to pen down my affection for you, my words seemingly betray me.
            
            I fear many things. 
            But most of all, i fear not being in love with you one disastrous morning.
            And i hope to God that day never arrives,
            and i am now satiated of all my worldly curiosities for this life. 

HI

But srsl gotta alwayd leave me an app or smth to message u or ill be depressed and write u as my 13th reason

As i should bitch forget me and ill haunt ur ass 

i see you with her, every single day. 
            and i swear i am in a better place now, with someone who makes me smile a lot wider than you ever did. 
            yet, our unfinished story haunts me from time to time.

and the days i wished for really did arrive. 

they ponder over my strength
            and hold my hand as they marvel over my courage.
            "i could never" they say, but how do i tell you that i am breaking on the inside,
            just the same?
            
            i convince myself there are better days ahead,
            ones which aren't laced with pain and agony
            ones where i can look him in the eyes and not feel a throb of melancholy.
            it's crazy how we look at someone
            and understand so little about them.
            they could be crying on the inside
            and yet we let their smile fool our minds
            and deliver us from all thoughts akin to kindness.
            we'd say, oh she's fine,
            she's moving on just nice
            but lord, if only you knew
            i'm truly hurting on the inside.

@enthral- I feel this. Really hope you're doing well

this place holds little value now.
             with all of us gone and the space left empty, all it holds are the memories we left behind. 
            ones, i hope, we'd come find from time to time.

oop guess who’s late. thanks and to you too. how’s 2021 so far ?

wby 

nothing i’m literally bored. they closed flights again here and i can’t go back to uni to do my fun practicals soooo.

Really???

@d3dgrl same