euphoriashe007

It always goes
          	Them: she said she wanted to be a pilot. I really hope she's serious about it
          	Me: I am.  I've been talking bout this since I was a child. 
          	Then once I'm out of the room
          	Them: lol she's too much of a scary cat to be a pilot.  She'll run out of the flight scared.  She'll never become a pilot. Anyway let her come and tell us that she wants to be a pilot herself then we'll consider.
          	
          	
          	...........so I've been speaking to what entity for all these years????  They always do this.  Everytime I'm confident with something and wanna stick to that thing they make me question it.  First it was singing and then I just gave up the good parts when it came to group competitions and stopped participating in solo competitions cuz I was scared they we're right.  Then it was with other dreams that I had.  Then it's with my looks and then my clothes and my studies.  
          	
          	They're the main reason I've turn into a being with the worst self esteem out there. Its like my time I feel the slightest bit if confidence in myself that notice no feel the need to crush it down to crumbles.

Mysterious1_2_9

HEY HOW ARE YOU? 
          I DID NOT USE WATTPAD FOR A VERY LONG TIME AND NOW THEY HAVE REMOVED THE MESSGE OPTION....

euphoriashe007

@Mysterious1_2_9  Besides I’d really recommend keeping a diary when you feel snappy. I get like that sometimes but I don’t wanna hurt the people around me so instead of telling another human I tell my diary. It’s an inanimate object and wtv you write down stays between the book and you. No other human is involved and you so t have to worry about someone gossiping or exposing and shittalking bout you or using your emotional struggles against you. Just you and your book but I’d say to a certain level consider the book your friend…..idk like be a little delulu.
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euphoriashe007

@Mysterious1_2_9  it’s a tough spot you’re in but I kinda get it. You just need to take a breathe, a moment for yourself. Just sit alone and dissect through your thoughts. Writing them down helps and preferably do this when you’re alone or when you know no one’s gonna disturb so then you don’t have to worry if a tear or two or maybe even multiple slip out. Don’t hold back the tears or sadness or anger. Let it out, scream into a pillow or cry into it or punch it, anything that helps you feel like you’re physically releasing the mental stress out helps then write it down in a book or a paper and keep it to read for when you’re calm. Then check what all problems you wrote down are actually problems and what all are just us being overwhelmed. I know that last line was kinda insensitive in some sense and that I have no right to tell you that your problems might not even be problems and just our brain leading us on but it’s happened to me and I doubt the brain on another 17 year old girl with somewhat of a similar life as mine feels that drastically different. We’re just very overwhelmed sometimes
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Mysterious1_2_9

@euphoriashe007  I feel like with each passing day I am standing in a graveyard and beginning to see the remnants of the people who were once living happily and here I am not even trying.........
            I don't know man everything just seems too tiresome, I get annoyed if anyone even sits besides mem
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euphoriashe007

It always goes
          Them: she said she wanted to be a pilot. I really hope she's serious about it
          Me: I am.  I've been talking bout this since I was a child. 
          Then once I'm out of the room
          Them: lol she's too much of a scary cat to be a pilot.  She'll run out of the flight scared.  She'll never become a pilot. Anyway let her come and tell us that she wants to be a pilot herself then we'll consider.
          
          
          ...........so I've been speaking to what entity for all these years????  They always do this.  Everytime I'm confident with something and wanna stick to that thing they make me question it.  First it was singing and then I just gave up the good parts when it came to group competitions and stopped participating in solo competitions cuz I was scared they we're right.  Then it was with other dreams that I had.  Then it's with my looks and then my clothes and my studies.  
          
          They're the main reason I've turn into a being with the worst self esteem out there. Its like my time I feel the slightest bit if confidence in myself that notice no feel the need to crush it down to crumbles.

minchae36

Your comments r so funny

minchae36

@euphoriashe007 SAME! But they know abt my wattoad and pinterest acc
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euphoriashe007

@minchae36 I forgot I had a tumblr account. It's @eunoiashe007 if you're on there
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euphoriashe007

@minchae36  I'll tell you what the package involves tho.
            1) free rant sessions (I'm the therapist friend) 
            2) msg me anytime but I will take time to reply hehe
            3) lots and lots of dumb one liners
            4) add me on Pinterest and I'll spam you with nothing and everything
            5) you like tmnt?  Lol
            And much much more.
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