fadedirwin

also probably gonna like.................finally update untouched tonight........mhmm.....................................................

fadedirwin

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omg hi i haven't posted anything in forever but blackout made it to #408 in 5sos fanfiction and i know that's not much but wow im really proud :-( thank u guys for reading the bullshit i write even though it's not the best lol

fadedirwin

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FUCK donald trump and FUCK every racist, sexist, homophobic, xenophobic, transphobic and ableist piece of shit that voted for him. i hope you feel cozy in the fact that you're promoting global hate and literally making people fear for their fucking lives. fuck you. fuck all of you that did this.

karmenethers

@fadedirwin AMEN.
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fadedirwin

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Depression truly is something you’ll never be able to understand unless you have it. You’ll never understand what it’s like to sit through everyday situations and wish you weren’t there. You’ll never understand what it’s like to feel as though you’re the biggest outcast in your family because they’re Happy and you’re Not. You’ll never understand what it’s like to wake up in the morning and wish your eyes never opened. You’ll never understand what it’s like to lay in bed, knowing you have to get up and face the world, but you physically can’t make yourself leave your room. You’ll never understand what it’s like to sit there, your eyes full of tears, your chest heavy, suffocating you until you can’t breathe. You’ll never understand what it’s like to just fucking cry for hours on end and not even be able to pinpoint an exact reason as to why you’re upset. You’ll never understand walking over bridges above rushing water and wondering how long it’d take you to drown if you just stepped off, or wondering how deep you’d have to cut to bleed out silently. You’ll never understand how it feels to see death everywhere and crave it. You’ll never understand what it’s like to feel so insignificant to the world around you, and pray that you weren’t alive.

fadedirwin

@karmenethers thank you so much babe im so proud of all the progress youve made!!
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karmenethers

@fadedirwin I'm in the same boat with you. It's almost been a year now since I started my journey to recovery, and I cannot believe how much progress I've made. This past year has flown by, even though a year felt like a decade before. Seconds were hours. What really helped me was medications. They don't wave a magic wand and poof away all of your mental illness (unfortunately), but they give you the motivation and energy to get up and build your own damn magic wand. All of my luck and love to you on your journey <3 I'm rooting for you
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